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Suicidal Todoroki x Midoriya | What it Means to Love

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Reads 35,635
Votes 2,378
Parts 69
Time 19h 56m

Mature

[Please spare your eyes the agony of reading this abomination of a story. I wrote this forever ago and had no idea what I was doing.]

Empty.

Shoto Todoroki is empty. Words and blades (in a way, they're one and the same) alike have cut the color from his life and left irreversible wounds on his body and mind. Todoroki is unable to recall how to feel emotion in his achromatic world after endeavoring to cope with his painful past, but is his inability to feel simply a lie he's fabricated for himself? 

Izuku Midoriya initially perceives Todoroki as a supposedly "bad person" due to Todoroki's glaring cold-heartedness. So, how will Midoriya react when he begins to unravel the enigma known as Shoto Todoroki and realize that even that which is shatterproof can still shatter?


[#1 in todorokixmidoriya on 04/15/21.]
[Completed on 08/26/20.]

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Note:
- This story is not intended to encourage/promote any of its darker themes/topics.
- This trash needs heavy editing.
- Cover is a work in progress.
Disclaimer:
- All credit for the BNHA/MHA characters used goes to Horikoshi Kohei.All Rights Reserved

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