Only to Feel This Fully [Completed]
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  • Parts 26
  • Time 3h 30m
ewwwdavid
Complete, First published Dec 17, 2019
Mature
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Charlie Holloway has great friends, good grades, a steady part-time job he actually likes, and athletic ability that makes him a star in two sports, but recently it's all felt rather hollow. However, when childhood friend Theo Broussard comes back into his life, Charlie is shaken out of a years-long daze that has left him coasting through his teenage years.

Theo just happening to be the star player for his school's biggest rival and his first crush only complicates matters further. When things get difficult, Charlie finds himself forced to choose between his current life following the path of least resistance or a harder but possibly more fulfilling one.

"Only to feel this fully, this entire, the way snow touched bare skin & is suddenly, no longer snow" -Ocean Vuong, "Devotion" from Night Sky with Exit Wounds

[Re-edited 4/18/20]
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