Only to Feel This Fully [Completed]
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  • Time 3h 30m
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Complete, First published Dec 17, 2019
Mature
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Charlie Holloway has great friends, good grades, a steady part-time job he actually likes, and athletic ability that makes him a star in two sports, but recently it's all felt rather hollow. However, when childhood friend Theo Broussard comes back into his life, Charlie is shaken out of a years-long daze that has left him coasting through his teenage years.

Theo just happening to be the star player for his school's biggest rival and his first crush only complicates matters further. When things get difficult, Charlie finds himself forced to choose between his current life following the path of least resistance or a harder but possibly more fulfilling one.

"Only to feel this fully, this entire, the way snow touched bare skin & is suddenly, no longer snow" -Ocean Vuong, "Devotion" from Night Sky with Exit Wounds

[Re-edited 4/18/20]
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My One Regret (BoyxBoy)

40 parts Complete Mature

"Remember this - don't fuck up my life more than you already have, pretty boy. You're gonna regret it." Even while knowing that he felt nothing towards me other than hatred, that was the first time I really acknowledged the small things about Blake Brooks, something I never thought about before. His face was like a drug I couldn't get enough of. -- Theo Wright is a quiet, and intelligent nerd, who's academically oriented. He comes from a family with a prestigious and wealthy background. He's usually left alone, ignored, and overlooked, but not at his new High School. Not at Redsen High. With his parents firing half of the town's shop owners to make room for more chain restaurants and stores, the town of Redcliff is enraged at the Wrights' actions. Especially Blake Brooks, a popular and obnoxious jock, who just so happens to live next to the Wright mansion, and coincidentally, goes to the same school as Theo. When Blake finds out the news about his parents' unjustified unemployment, he's angry and provoked. And what better way to get back at the Wrights', than to find his way into their business secrets? But to achieve this, he first needs to find his way into Theo Wright's heart. (COMPLETE) tropes - bxb, enemies to lovers, vengeance, temporary unrequited love, revenge, high school, polar opposites, bet, slowburn copyright @asphericity and @ventricosity

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