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Only to Feel This Fully [Completed]

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Charlie Holloway has great friends, good grades, a steady part-time job he actually likes, and athletic ability that makes him a star in two sports, but recently it's all felt rather hollow. However, when childhood friend Theo Broussard comes back into his life, Charlie is shaken out of a years-long daze that has left him coasting through his teenage years.

Theo just happening to be the star player for his school's biggest rival and his first crush only complicates matters further. When things get difficult, Charlie finds himself forced to choose between his current life following the path of least resistance or a harder but possibly more fulfilling one.

"Only to feel this fully, this entire, the way snow touched bare skin & is suddenly, no longer snow" -Ocean Vuong, "Devotion" from Night Sky with Exit Wounds

[Re-edited 4/18/20]All Rights Reserved

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Coming Home [Completed] by ewwwdavid

Eight months after the events of "Only To Feel This Fully," Charlie Holloway has his rock bottom. He's come out in the worst way possible and will soon have to switch schools, where he will have to see his ex Theo Broussard in class every day. Charlie just wants to find happiness, but the world seems to be conspiring against him. Meanwhile, Theo must figure out some things for himself, as he weighs what he wants in life and what to do after graduation. The two are no longer on speaking terms and each will have to find their own way in the world, before either can ever find love again, together or separately.

When Sophomores Collide (BoyxBoy) ✓ by euwangabrielll

"Theo. If I'm not mistaken? Isn't this yours?" He extended a hand, holding my penguin printed handkerchief. My eyes couldn't have gotten so wide. I quickly swiped it out of his grasp. "Ah, t-thank you." I stuttered before walking away and out of the school, but before I did, I heard a deep chuckle behind me that I guessed was from Hunter. *** Theodore Willshire, attractive, sassy, incredibly talented and extremely intelligent. His goal is to find love. But because of his sexual preference, it's not always easy. But he has his eye on one boy. Hunter Fierro. I guess you could say he is... the cliche heartthrob of the school. He's known as the kindest, accepting and can literally make anyone fall in love with him if he wants. How will the two of them meet? Easy! They just have to recall their past... Right? As they blindly step foot into Sophomore Year. Theo will make unexpected friends, allies and enemies, maybe even meet the love of his life! What if one day, a mysterious being approaches him with an offer that seems normal at first but can change Theo's life? Highest Ranking: #1 on #LGBT #1 on #gaylove #2 on #cute #2 on #school #4 on #teen #6 on #highschool WARNING: This contains strong language, mature content and bullying. If you're not a fan of LGBTQ+ stories or BXB stories, this story is not for you. Plagarism is unbecoming for beautiful and amazing people such as my readers.

His Sunshine by sunnylanee

Bailey Summers, a new student at a problematic school. Between the struggles of trying to fit in whilst beind a desperate people pleaser, he finds himself betrayed and caught in between making the right choices. He finds himself curious about a mysterious boy, Chicago Beckette, who doesn't want anything to do with him, but is persistant. As he travels down the wrong path, the boy that he had grown so desperate to know is there to help him in ways he had never expierenced before. The rumors that litter Chicago Beckette's name keep Bailey cautious. But what are these rumors? Where do they come from? Will Bailey remain by Chicago's side? Will Chicago do the same? How 'dangerous' is he?

After Dark by Okieleaf

《 This is a BoyxBoy story 》 William Caddel wants to live. Between crushing expectations and the strictness that comes with them that seems like such an impossible thing to do. He has so much of the world he wants to see, so much he wants to experience. He's a kid who is expected to act like anything but. With the help of a friend he gets a tiny taste of freedom. He gets a grasp of what life could be like away from his pretentious private school and snobby parents. He gets to experience the life he's dreamed of and gets hooked fast. For Ian Morrison it didn't take long to see through the boy his sister brought along to hangout one day. The awkward, anxious, shy type. The kid grew on him, faster than he could've imagined. After learning about everything Liam has missed out on, Ian wants to help him. Doing things you've never done before with someone else as a guide opens up a whole new life. Liam is already trying many new things and getting opportunities he's never had before, so why not offer up one more?

No More Wasting Time by Creative_Writer407

Diego Santiago was not your average teenager. He had a loving mother, a great best friend, a beautiful friend, an ex-boyfriend that gave him a traumatic experience, a soon-to-be stepbrother that helped along in that traumatic experience, a friend turned enemy, and finally, a messy slight crush. It's a handful. He was no longer a nobody but somebody with a bad name and a target on his head. He messed with the school's king, and he needed to face the consequences, or so they say and believe. Despite all these things that are making his life one big roller coaster, he still wants one thing in life, for his mother and friends to be happy. Caden Mitchell had a hectic life of his own as well. He was the enemy at first and is trying his best to become a true brother and a true lover. He knew he needed to change, but his old habits keep crawling back. He needed to learn and grow as a person, and for the sake of his mental health, he needed to change fast. Caden was on a mission, a mission to get back his soon-to-be stepbrother and his lover that meant more to him than he could express in words. He was growing desperate and was ready to do just about anything. Even if that meant leaving behind Victor, who he once saw was the closest thing to a brother he'd ever get.

Cold and Charisma (BoyxBoy) by asphericity

Riley Lachkov's life has only ever consisted of one thing - soccer. Raised in a family where emotions don't exist, Riley has put on a cold-front for as long as he could remember. Many people think that they know him - a cocky, arrogant, rude jerk who couldn't give less of a shit about what others think, but deep down, there's a part of him that no one has ever seen. A part of him that he never wants anyone to see. Archer Wilson has got everything going for him. From being at the top of all of his classes, to also being the most popular boy in school, his life is perfect. Everyone who knows Archer can confirm that he is anything but mean - with his charismatic personality, and his ability to make anyone swoon for him, he's the golden boy at Saint Arthur's Preparatory School. When Riley's family immigrated from Russia to the States, he struggles to fit in, finding it difficult to start his entire life over when the only thing he's ever known was his life back in his home country. His closed off personality and his tendency to act like a total douchebag didn't help either - in fact, it just made people want to stay away from him even more. But that doesn't stop Archer from trying. In fact, it makes him more intrigued in this new, feisty transfer student, more keen to break down all the walls that Riley has worked so hard to keep up for his entire life. Archer can't help but praise him for every little thing he does- in his eyes, Riley was an angel. He knew he was whipped the moment he saw him. What happens when Archer, the top student at Saint Arthur's, suddenly begins to develop an interest in the new transfer student, whose personality is as cold as ice? Will Riley finally begin to let him in, or will he continue to push him out, like he's done throughout his entire life? tropes: #grumpyxsunshine, #polaropposites, #slowburn, #temporaryunrequitedlove #popularnerdxlonelyathlete All Rights Reserved to Asphericity

The Sound of Ice by MAndALaptop

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On Thin Ice by hipstateasee

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Falling, Fallen (bxb) by eunoiaredamancy

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My One Regret (BoyxBoy) by asphericity

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Coming Home [Completed]

Eight months after the events of "Only To Feel This Fully," Charlie Holloway has his rock bottom. He's come out in the worst way possible and will soon have to switch schools, where he will have to see his ex Theo Broussard in class every day. Charlie just wants to find happiness, but the world seems to be conspiring against him. Meanwhile, Theo must figure out some things for himself, as he weighs what he wants in life and what to do after graduation. The two are no longer on speaking terms and each will have to find their own way in the world, before either can ever find love again, together or separately.