gloom before the bloom;
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Last published Mon, Jan 6, 2020
if you're here, you probably came from the gram, so, hi.
this is a messy compilation of excerpts, poems, and journal entries that has been sitting on my notes folder throughout 2019. a little heads up if you decide to peek inside that 2019 really had me by the throat, hence the "gloom" part of the title. if you knew me in real life and ever felt like i was being distant or ignorant towards you, i sincerely apologize.
lastly, this is me at my most vulnerable form. i wrote this mostly at my low, so it may seem cheesy, and it will surely be dramatic. please understand. some are hopeful but most are just simply depressing. i hope you don't mind.
here's to blooming for the better on 2020. cheers! :)
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