I surrendered, in one not so very special night, I surrendered, when the words were so much more than my heart can contain, I surrendered, and decided to start writing, the story that I promised to write.
I held my laptop, sat on the couch, and finally started to write, to let everything out, I wanted to finish it as soon as possible, so I can finally sigh in relief...
I loved him... with all the love of my heart I loved him, but his eyes couldn't see anyone other than one and only girl, and I always were his best friend, secrets keeper and his younger sister, nothing more, and nothing less. But I wasn't satisfied, I hoped for more, I WANTED more! I wanted him to look at me the same way I look at him, I wanted him to see me as a woman, not as his "little sis" as he always used to call me. I hated being a prisoner in the cage of friendship, I wanted to be in the golden cage of his heart, the lovers cage, I wanted to invade his mind, and capture his heart, I wanted him to be mine and only mine. It sounded selfish in the beginning, but then my love grew bigger and bigger, until it started to hurt my heart, that's when I became obsessed with him, I couldn't see anyone but him, cause he was the only one who's diving into my mind, and it turned out that HE is the one who captured my heart, and invaded my mind, not me. Things didn't go as I hoped, so I was suffering everyday because of this love, being that very close to him and not being able to touch him, or to kiss him, or even just to say "I Love you more than JUST a friend", these few words that I've been dying to say. and on top of all, she came, all of a sudden, out of nowhere, she showed up, "Olivia", the girl who took my love away from me, the one who turned everything upside down, My very very very WORST ENEMY!!...
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"What do you expect? We'll make love?..I won't make love to you Lyka. I will fuck you so damn hard that you'll regret leaving me behind for that asshole! I will make you cum till you regret breaking my heart. I won't stop fucking you till I break you just like how you break me."
"All I want is to fuck you. At kung gusto mong makasama ang anak natin.. tiisin mo. Don't worry I will make you cum no matter what. I will make you enjoy it so fucking much hanggang sa makalimutan mo ang lahat ng pang gagago niyo sakin."
Marahas ang mga pag hawak nito sa kanya. Kaya't labis siyang nagulat sa malaking pag babago na nakikita niya dito. Walang bahid ng kahit anong pag mamahal. Ibang iba ng makilala niya ito noon.
"I forgive you when you kiss him! I forgive you when you still fucking love him while I'm still waiting for you! I fucking forgive you when you let him kiss you and almost fuck you! Kaya wag mo kong tingnan ng ganyan thinking you might control me just because we fucked! Not again Lyka! Hindi mo na ako masasaktan gaya noon! I will not let you break me over again!"
Umiiyak si Lyka. Nag sisisi sa lahat ng nangyayari. Sa mga nagawa niya Kay Felip but it was too late. Hindi na niya maibabalik ang lalaking labis na nag mahal sa kanya noon.
Ang tanging lalaki na halos ibigay ang mundo para sa kanya and she just let him go.
Hindi niya ito masisisi kung bakit ito humantong sa ganoon. Siya ang dahilan. Minsan na nitong pinili na sirain ang sarili just to save her.
She promised him that she will never leave him. She promised him she always choose him. She promised him that no matter what happened? She will stay...but in the end...all of the chaos in her life. Iniwan niya ito ng maraming beses. Hanggang sa... Tuluyan na lang itong namanhid sa lahat.