I surrendered, in one not so very special night, I surrendered, when the words were so much more than my heart can contain, I surrendered, and decided to start writing, the story that I promised to write.
I held my laptop, sat on the couch, and finally started to write, to let everything out, I wanted to finish it as soon as possible, so I can finally sigh in relief...
I loved him... with all the love of my heart I loved him, but his eyes couldn't see anyone other than one and only girl, and I always were his best friend, secrets keeper and his younger sister, nothing more, and nothing less. But I wasn't satisfied, I hoped for more, I WANTED more! I wanted him to look at me the same way I look at him, I wanted him to see me as a woman, not as his "little sis" as he always used to call me. I hated being a prisoner in the cage of friendship, I wanted to be in the golden cage of his heart, the lovers cage, I wanted to invade his mind, and capture his heart, I wanted him to be mine and only mine. It sounded selfish in the beginning, but then my love grew bigger and bigger, until it started to hurt my heart, that's when I became obsessed with him, I couldn't see anyone but him, cause he was the only one who's diving into my mind, and it turned out that HE is the one who captured my heart, and invaded my mind, not me. Things didn't go as I hoped, so I was suffering everyday because of this love, being that very close to him and not being able to touch him, or to kiss him, or even just to say "I Love you more than JUST a friend", these few words that I've been dying to say. and on top of all, she came, all of a sudden, out of nowhere, she showed up, "Olivia", the girl who took my love away from me, the one who turned everything upside down, My very very very WORST ENEMY!!...
"Who's there," I can't breath. I'm always looking over my shoulder ever since- I can't think about the now. I have to run but where, back to Jake? No I can't, everything is different now. He's supposed to be here to protect me, because if the got me... blood smears the pages of the passed. "Sapphire!" I hear him call. "Coal!" I reach out to touch him only for him to be yanked just out of my reach. I hear the wolves in the distance howling at the beautiful moon. I need his touch again. I need to know I'm safe. The only safe place anymore is pressed against him under the sheets. "Coal!" I call out again. ---I can hear her. She's here somewhere I know it. I can smell her sent threw the thick of the woods. "Sapphire!" I call out, but my call is lost in the night. I have to protect her. I have to save one, just one. Maybe that will be enough to clean the blood off my tainted skin. What if they get her? She'll... Change... I look up at the moon, could she not have heard my howls? Of course she did. She always did. I can hear the other wolves in the forest. Soon I too would be engulfed by the beast. Unable to control myself, unable to predict the beasts next move. Only she could tame the beast inside me. Why be afraid of the monster under the bed when you should be afraid of the one lying next to you under the sheets.--- I keep quiet in the deep dark night. Watching her waiting for her to come back to me. I wait for him to slip up just long enough for me to swoop in and take her. It's only a matter of time. I wait for him to turn into that hideous beast. The beast that only comes out in the light of the moon. The beast that feeds of the insentient. I have to find her,to make her perfect, at least that's what they tell me. They tell me she'll be perfect and she will be mine. She will be the beginning of a new ere the ere of the beast. Everyone has secrets. Everyone lies. Everyone cries. Everyone dies.
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