Grace Lawrence, the daughter of Pastor Fergus and Bible thumping Beatrice Lawrence wishes she could be anything, and live as anyone other than herself. Maybe pain can be the one to save her, or maybe a certain blue haired gang leader will manage to. Or Grace carries her life in a book while her life is being torn apart page by page, and Toni manages to be the one thing she doesn't absolutely hate. TW- self harm, physical abuse, sexual abuse, eating disorders, gang violence, homophobia and racism. But it has a happy ending :) please don't read if any above subject matter is hurtful or harmful <3 take care of yourselves (Originally a fanfiction, now my own characters and world!)