The story of "me and my classmates"

When I was young ,Grade 1 at school my classmates are slightly bad all says that I'm special.......special child.......then one day I think to myself that I'm lonely at school but someone gave me a book and it is called the "Bible" then I started reading it every afternoon ,back on the day that I started on another school then they bully me too cause you know ..... then I suddenly thought that im special after days and days I attempted suicide but I survived ,then one day I started hurting my classmates because of what curse I have on me then I said to myslef, "I don't want to be special anymore I wanted friends but no I haven't got one"when I became on higschool level or being frrshman girls started to turn off on me just because I am sick I have special things on me I suddenly hit soneone on the face just because I'm angry I run around the school started playing like a child again but sometime I am normal like now I'm fighting myself just to be normal again I still fight it .......