it's been me

I was walking,leaving him behind,I can feel the tensed atmosphere that's between us ,it does bothered me so much to let him disappointed and full of anger but also I can't let him in
"-why?just why?"he shouted from behind,I stop for a moment then moved ahead ,this faster ,I was on the edge to fall
"give me a damn reason"he shouted louder
"cuz it's been me,.....only me..."I turned facing him ,tears streaming down my face,the rain gets heavier but it failed to cover my pained voice
"it 's been me .....all this time...all alone....what you don't seems to understand is.....is...I can't" I runed away from him and I was whispering with every teardrop "but I want you ..."