I Just Want To Cry
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Last published Tue, Jan 7, 2020
Have you ever felt so lost that you can't breathe? Where it feels like your world is caving in on you and your mind is collapsing? That feeling you get when you're spiraling in hopes, dreams, fears and memories and there's no one to catch you...
My name is Sam, and the past 4 years of my life have drug me through the mud. I'm so stuck I can barely stand on my feet, but I'm making it. Slowly, but surely.
Follow along with Sam and the obstacles life throws at her. You never know where the road will take you. But, you might end up where you never expected. For the better or for the worse.
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