I Would

Then I take turn towards the library only to see him standing not so far from the library door. He's showing his precious lopsided smile to his set of friends as he bid them goodbye-maybe it's because he needs to do his project.

🎶 'If I could just get over you I would
Don't wanna love you anymore
And missing you's like fighting a war
It's a battle I'm losing' 🎶

Then suddenly-so suddenly he looks to where I'm standing right now. Good thing I'm quick enough to lower down my head so I won't catch his eyes on me.

🎶 'If I could walk away as easily as you
I Would' 🎶

He can smile again-he can talk easily-he even looks at me. I'm the only one being affected after all-it hurts more.

🎶 'Thought I've seen enough to know it all
But not enough to know how it feels to fall
But the kind of pain you left me with
It never seems to heal
And it never lets me go' 🎶

Not even a word from my friends can help me. I'm miserable and I'm lying that by saying that "I'm ok." I am failing so hard and what hurts more knowing that between Ai'Mark and I-I'm the only one who's suffering more. Tears started to fall from my eyes. I don't want him to see me like this. I turn around so he won't even see even a tiny bit of tears to fall from me.

🎶 'Tell me how do I live with tainted heart?
Tell me how can I feel no feeling?
Is there a way to leave it all behind?' 🎶

"Damn it!" I mumbled as I feel more fresh tears fall from my eyes, I even harshly wiped it away but it's no use. I was so sure that I will run away again when suddenly I feel a broad chest and strong arms hug me-preventing me to turn around again or even run away, "Shhh-Ai'Gun-It's ok na khrab~" and I'm more thankful-knowing that I'm not alone.