My name is Alex, a seventeen year old boy from the Netherlands. "Problematic" is the word I would use if I could only describe myself in one word. Yep, my life is a disaster (to say the least). I'm about to bring you with me on my journey, and I hope you would like to join me in my battle. It's going to be chaotic, trust me, but I guess it's worth the try. I decided to write this book mainly for my own purpose. (and this is where it gets cliché) I never really realized how far ive truly come with life and my mental health. It's alright to bring awareness to yourself sometimes. "Battle with myself" is a book about my past. Maybe even the present at times. I'm going to start writing where it all goes downhill, which is around the age of 12. In this book you will read how and when it all got worse, how i used to cope and how i cope now, all my problems (damm, this is going to be a hell of a ride), how it is in a mental health ward, my recovery and process and a lot more. I hope to bring a little bit awareness to other people too. And i hope people have a better vision on mental health at the end of this book. But we'll see. *WARNING* THIS BOOK MIGHT INCLUDE SOME DISTURBING OR TRIGGERING THINGS. IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE OR HAVE EXPERIENCED HEAVY MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS IN THE PAST I WOULDN'T RECOMMEND READING THIS.