Am I...Enough? (Ashton Irwin Interracial Fanfiction)BWWM

It's getting harder and harder for me to rely on my fantasies to get me through life. Imagining us kissing under the stars--your perfect light skin glistening in the moonlight. Constantly planning our wedding in my mind even though I could really care less where or when we get married--I wouldn't mind getting naked and walking down the sexy aisle to get hitched--that way when the ceremony is finished, we'll grab a few necessities for our honeymoon then rush out before we get arrested for public indecency ;)
Wow.
I really am crazy. But you know what? I'm crazy for you. I don't care how many brutal insults I receive from your fans because they weren't there for you when you would cry every night wishing the wounds from your razor would take you up above. I was there for you when you were bullied down to your last bit of confidence to the point where you started cutting, but eventually I got you to stop. I DID. No matter how many times you try to convince THEM that they were the reason, I know that it was ME. It's always been me. Seeing how far you've come in accomplishing your dreams with the boys of 5SOS has inspired me to live each day in hopes that you will notice me the way that I've always noticed you. Dammit you're going to love me, or else I may not be here tomorrow. Will you miss me? Will you mourn for my heart then, the way all of me has been mourning for our souls to connect? Will you tell me you love me and that you wished you had told me sooner? Will I ever be your one and only? I guess what I really wanna know is...am I good enough to make you feel all those things and many other deep emotions? Or am I just another coin flipped into the pool of tears with others who yearn to be cared for by you?

Love me Ashton Fletcher Irwin
Please
I love you