behind closed doors (bakudeku)
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Last published Sat, Jan 11, 2020
ever since deku moved into his dorm, everyone had noticed he was acting oddly different.
of course, the deku that everyone knew was happy, cheerful, and always willing to hang out! but he couldn't keep it in anymore.
not full time.
because whenever he got back to his room (after dodging bakugo God knows how many times) he could sit down, put in his headphones, grab a bad, and well..
you know what happens next.
but what happens when one day after being meaner then usual, bakugo hears deku crying in his room.
will he feel bad and try and step in? or will he just walk away with a smile.
⚠️ warning!⚠️
-suicide
-self harm
-homos
-bullying
-possible smut
please don't read if you are easily triggered and if you go ahead and read anyway please don't put it on me, as you have been warned.
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