This is a true story of my first heartbreak, those that came after, broken friendships, drug abuse, and my days of high school. Though many names will be changed and some even left out, I feel this gives more meaning to my published journal. This story is not the start of my mental decline but the peak of it, I have decided that I want to steer away from childhood traumas and my younger selfs past and focus on the outcome of it all. This will be a triggering story, so advise those who want to avoid digging up tucked away feelings to not read this.