Because of you who am I? (rewrite)

This is a rewrite of the last story! Steven thinks about all the stuff he been through over the years he has mental trauma and he feels obligated to his mother and led by blind devotion... He always a wanted to be like his mother
"The mighty Rose Quartz" He wanted to show the others he was a true crystal gem! But he knows he'll never live up to their expectations and he'll never be like his mother once was... He also had to watch Jasper get corrupted and he feels like it's his fault even though it wasn't his fault! He tried to help her!
But he still blames himself for that!
And he remembered how eyeball tried to shatter him and he felt guilty for having to throw her out into outer space! It was becoming to much to handle for the poor boy so he lives life out on the run and he hides out on the moon base!