Summary: Team 7 has a puzzling teammate. One member starts putting the pieces together when he stumbles on something that shook him to the core, making him rush to finish after seeking help from the rest of the team left in the dark of the blondes situation called life. Naruto has a choice to make, but a story to tell before he completes his decision. He lost his best friend when he was only ten, but he holds a part of them in his body still. He has memorized everything the villagers have told him and done to him over the many years; as much as he'd like to forget, his brain won't allow him to despite the many concussions he's endured... "accidents" in his life. There's only one sure way to release himself from this predicament, but that will have to wait until after his story's finished in his journal. Warning: Regarding some content that has caused Naruto to cry himself to sleep every evening after holding an open consultation with his trustworthy kunai. The author does not want to trigger the readers to hurt themselves in any way, as Naruto has before. When he speaks concerning his past, he is not going to hold back. It is going to be difficult for him and perhaps for some of the readers. In this storyline, Naruto has self-harmed and has been suicidal previously, he has been abused physically, emotionally, and mentally by the villagers from the Hidden Leaf Village, and much more. So, when he addresses his struggles, the writer hopes the readers can appreciate this information. Also, the writer wishes for no one, especially Sakura, to appear and proceed to beat Naruto's head after shouting at him for not showing up to the latest meeting. The writer hopes no one hinders Naruto's tale.