Preface
"What a Femme Fatale can do to you?"
It all started when I never reached a point where I can really define the word, love, it was always easy for me to tell stories about other people falling in that huge sea, waiting for each other to fulfill their wishes and hopes in life. I realized that this one thing, satisfaction, is nothing but a big lie, because, after all, we all can define the word, love, according to our expertise, perspectives, and the state of adoration. But now, and just now, I know that some people don't really know what that exact word, love, means. Monsters, they are liars, definitely not. They're much more than that, I personally call them killers, psychologically and mentally, emotionally painful. They are silent, cute, spontaneous, pretty in every possible way we can ever think of, or imagine, but at the same time they want you killed, they want to torture you till the end. What an evil soul they have, why would anyone abuse another in that cruel way?
Dear reader, you are wondering what the heck is going on. I will tell you, this story is a type of women in this universe, the genre of literature you would love to read, you would do anything to touch the cover, and open the essence to unleash the bird inside you. In one moment, you would feel like this book is all your life, more like your heart, you can sense the words, they are pretty much like your blood, yes, your heart is pumping words to the rest of your body. Trust me, whenever you get to that kind of books, burn it immediately, before it burns you. If you don't, you will know why I say that your heart will be already in the sea, and the book is seducing you to open it, you'll not ever get the ability to read. All you'll get is an impression, and then you would have three words inside your mind: I want her.
This woman is always called Femme Fatale.
USER SERIES 1
Micah Rex: He's handsome, dangerous, reckless. An addict. When he walks into a room, people notice. People are scared of him, people don't look him in the eye.
AJ Ferro: She's cute, nice respectful. A helper. When she walks in a room, people usually get flowers. People love her, people want to be her friend.
Despite her cheery nature and soft words AJ has never had it easy when it came to addiction -or depression. Without his addiction, sadness and anger Micah doesn't know who he is -and he hates not knowing things.
And, of all places, they meet at a rehab center.
He looked at her and saw a peppy girl with no future. She looked at him and saw a troubled boy with a bad past.
Micah wants to die, AJ wants him to live.
It's only a matter of time before one of them breaks through or breaks the other.
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I was 12 the first time I took a hit off a joint at a party, smoked a blunt by myself and bought a bong. I was 13 when I started drinking alcohol for fun. 14 the first time I took ecstasy at a college party I snuck into, the same age I lost my virginity. This was the first time I went to a mental institution because it's also the year I first tried to kill myself. 15 the first time I smoked meth, took a bump of cocaine, shot myself up with heroine. This was the first time I got sent to rehab, it didn't work and I came out worse.
I was 16 when I tried to commit three times in the same year, the last time I got my heart to stop for 30 seconds. That year was also the first time I snorted Hydrocodone, getting me started in opiates, I experimented with Xanax and liked it.
And I was a month from 17 when I got sober.
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"Fuck you." I snap.
"You already have." Micah bites out. "And I'm pretty fucking sure you liked it too, if your orgasms were anything to go by."
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"I want-" Micah stopped, running his fingers through his hair. "Never mind what I want. What do you want?" His voice is quieter now, more gentle.
"You."