My goodbyes to you, Love.

I hoped that you'd see me cry and come back to me, but my tears gave you satisfaction, love.
They gave you courage and confidence to slip from my hands and I loved you love, more than i loved myself.
Losing you made me love myself and I thank you for that but that's not enough. I'm not enough. You see, a women like me needs you. I need you to be here by my side.

You see.

I'm not in a good place right now. I'm still moving on. But, I got that job and I'm still studying like you told me just to get you back.

"I did this and I'm okay with it.
I'm okay with you being on the floor sinking in your own blood. It's like a river, floating. I wanted to cry, to scream but, this was my only option.
Believe me.
I tried"

To be continued...