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trapped inside an endless dark hallway.
i tried to find someone to help guide me but then i ended up chained up.
chained up in a tree of guilt.
letting leaves fall out and grow back.
never staying still as they get pushed around by the wind of change.
i could go back to the hallway.
but the leaves seem more welcoming than the dark eyes that i always think i see.
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¡ lowercase intended
¡ this is my poetry rant book
¡ will include triggering themes such as rape, suicidal thoughts, gang violence, and anxiety attack references
¡ i don't care if you read this or not, this is to help my mental health, not to satisfy my readers unlike my other books
¡ comments that suggest that I'm overreacting, not helping myself, being a brat, talking shït or so on will be deleted immediately.
¡ if you comment a critique, complement, or question, i will probably respond within the next 24 hours or so.
¡ the cover image was created by me and my friend.
¡ if i see that you've used my work, used my cover, or used my idea without asking permission, i will call you out immediately. just ask to use it and I'll give you the basic circumstances.
¡ poems are meant to be short and out of context
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