A suicidal person's guide to not killing yourself

Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? Raise your hands... Quite a few of you.
Do you think about suicide often? Raise your hands... Still a lot of people.
Do you think about suicide every day, planned it, wish for it? Not as many, but some.

Have you spent at least 20 years thinking of suicide, feeling pain at almost every waking moment, hating life, hating yourself, being self-destructive and have the perfect way to end it all? Still a couple of hands in the air. Well, this story is for you.