Dear Heroin it was you or me so....
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This is a letter that I wrote to heroin as an assignment from my therapist while I was in rehab back in 2017. I still read over this letter as a tool to remind me of where I came from and why I do what I do today in recovery. I have several editions to this letter as I grow spiritually and emotionally I will add a few more things that I want to say to heroin. I have found this a useful tool in recovery. I strongly suggest anyone who is in recovery to write a letter to their drug of choice, or all drugs A-Z.
God Bless You and I hope and pray this letter may bring someone a little hope.
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