Stud Love
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MatureOngoing2h 17m
Last published Tue, Apr 7, 2020
"If you are reading this then it's too late. What I have done has already been done and i'm sorry to everyone that this may hurt. I tried my best but this life i was given i could no longer go on. Don't pity my soul or wallow in sadness. I don't deserve it. I left with an empty conscience I hold no one responsible for my actions but myself. ~ Rachel"
A liar up to my dying moment huh? At peace? I was far from peaceful i'm about to end my life. God's hands? More like the devils because we all know who is gonna keep me because of how I treated everyone.
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