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Reasons I loathe myself/answers to questions NO ONE ASKED

ZanaChanOTPS4Lf

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Reads 65
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Parts 9
Time <5 mins

ZanaChanOTPS4Lf

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Hey, I doubt anyone is going to read this but my IRL friends. But why not give it a try!

What I will be talking about: Life sucks, and I can't save myself. I feel my friends and family wouldn't understand, heck I don't understand. I feel trapped, encircled into pressure. Like all eyes are on me. Watching my every move. 

Why I'm talking about it: I just need to vent.

Why I feel this way: ... I don't knowAll Rights Reserved

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Lost Without You by Holostars

The day he ran away was the day I lost myself. I couldn't concentrate on my studies. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I was... a mess. I lost all sense of life, all sense of feeling. I became numb. and then, one day... everything went black, and I found myself in a field of flowers, all alone. Some say I died of a broken heart. Others say I died because I wasn't taking care of myself. Either way, I was dead. I thought I'd be gone forever, and then, one day, I wake up. I don't know why or how, but I do. And then, he comes back... and I feel whole again. "I was so lost without you."

Behind every mean girl...there's a tragedy by Winchesters_united

The average human being spends every second of his day fighting against the force of nature to see another day. But I'm different. I'm not afraid of outside forces to take my life away - only myself. Approximately 10 years ago, something happened to me. Something really bad. But I'm not allowed to talk about it. As a way to release my frustration, I give hell to my body and everyone I come in contact with - especially my parents. No one knows about what happened except the ones who did it...and Him. But he didn't stay. Now, he's back and he's not talking either. I want to stop hurting, I need to stop. Make me stop.

Blue Hair and Bruised Knees by booodiful

My life used to be pretty boring. Everything was average. Normal family, normal looks, normal house, normal job, normal life. The only non-boring aspect of my life was my best friend which was only because she always managed to mess it up somehow. I didn't really mind much because it kept things interesting. That is until she disappeared leaving me to care for her fatherless child with nothing more than a few hundred pounds and a sorry note. She did ruin my old life. She ruined everything that I'd actually cared for. My parents hated the fact that I was 'throwing my life away' for a child that wasn't mine. Not to mention illegally. I dyed my hair blue in rebellion. My own way of saying "F*CK YOU!" ...They kicked me out shortly after. I couldn't find a decent job in the area and the rumors became so vicious that I just left and never looked back. Old life: Destroyed, unraveled, completely gone. Let's see how long my new life lasts shall we?

Untitled Fears by Liv1844

I was close to dying if not from my sister. I went from bitches at school to my alcoholic, addict abusing mother. Then my best friend decided he wanted stop be part of the crew that cries for me to give me another reason to live. I didn't want another one but...it feels nice. Warning: This is rated MATURE for a reason. Mentions of cutting, abuse, alcoholism, bullying, gayness, and Gacha pictures because they help me visualize my characters better. If any of these things make you uncomfortable, get the hell away from my story, no one said you had to sit here and read this. I am not a professional writer but I did try with what my pain and emotions gave me. The entirety of the story is explained over time so if you want to sit and read, be my guest. Our protagonist is Ryan and let's just say he's gonna go through hell and back.

Strip Game - A Whirlwind Summer by RainyLisa

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"It's getting harder each day, so much harder. It drains me to have to constantly put up a mask, hiding how I really feel behind a smile that isn't even true. I don't think I'll ever find that easy, because it's not. The easy part for me is lying, it always has been. Telling them I'm fine always works. But the hardest thing... the hardest thing is realising that no one hears my pleads, my cries and my screams... leaving me to fix my broken mind." ~~ Cooper Bryan is a young boy living with his mother in California, he lost his brother and father when he was 7 and now, his mother is moving on, she's getting remarried. From bullying, to awful step brothers, to having monsters in his head, Cooper fears he won't make it through his teenage years... but he's surviving... and he's doing it damn well too. This... this is his story, with many ups and a million downs, this... this is Cooper Bryan's troubled life. ~~ DISCLAIMER: I do not own any photos/Videos or songs used in this Wattpad story. They were either found on google or YouTube

He promised us... by its_dazza

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Fix Me, I'm Broken by Ana11e1y

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Tongue-Biter by ghxst_turtle

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Family Comes First by CRAZY40429

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Lost Without You

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