The paradox of wanting something new

Just a little poem about Delena.

Before anyone reads this poem, there is something they should know. I wrote this for my creative writing class. The one rule we had was to not use the words on the forbidden word list. Every time I write "...I mean", it was because I almost used a word from the list. I did that on purpose. I wanted to show that breaking away from habits is hard, but it creates something a lot better. Let's play a game in the comments. Try to guess which words were on the list that I used. Some are obvious, others not as much.