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dark heart

itsmariamderayo1

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she found her strength in others pain only she knows how much those thoughts hunt her, of rejection and hatred so she only tell herself everyday that some people go through something worse but what if the thought are uncontrollable and the urge to harm herself become unbearable and she had to do it?  And the voices won't stop calling her failure she should try harder, that all her pain will vanish and the voices won't be there anymore and all she wants to do is stop it.


Meet Alice Cooper a psychologist, who is also in need of a happiness joy and peace so she decided to go to college and be a psychologist because it gives her joy and clear all the doubt until she is alone and all she see is her as a failure that let her family down. 
Will she end it all? Or will she survive?All Rights Reserved

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