Thoughts
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Last published Mon, Aug 11, 2014
These thoughts and opinions are driving me insane but I'm okay I don't need help. No I am not, but I still don't need you. That little girl is so overwhelmed by thoughts. She wants loose herself in books and not in her thoughts. She wants to swim with the characters and not swim with her demons. She wants to drown herself in the comforting darckness and not not drown herself with her demons. She wants to Be swallowed by the peace and calm, and not be swallowed by the devil.
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