Still Holding On
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❝Kid, don't do that!❞ It was as if I could almost feel him smile-Hear it in his voice, let the warmth of it deluge my heart.
❝Why not?❞
❝It tickles, Allan.❞ I looked into his eyes as he chuckled. Just then i noticed a strange spark of uncertainty and fear. Something deep and peculiar-far beyond joy.
And in just that moment, everything turned upside down. His hand reached for mine as i clasped to it firmly with the fear lurking into my chest and spreading just like the vicious numbness that took over my body.
➵ Allan Colebrooks has been diagnosed with OCD and is struggling with bullying, anxiety and suicidal thoughts ever since the freshmen year. Its junior year and he still feels lonely, stuck and misunderstood. Almost like he doesn't really matter to anyone. But with a sudden twist in his story, a new guy at school and the Help centre takes a sudden interest in Allan.
➵ Jace Gray isn't a perfect student with a perfect background. He was expelled from his previous school due to anger issues. He refuses to get himself a proper treatment as he believes he is perfectly fine and lives life to his own free will. Until he falls for the guy from his new school and Help centre, Allan Colebrooks.
➵ Everything feels beautiful. Everything feels amazing and perfectly fine in both their lives-a dream of evermore bliss-when one ill-fated night, one of them dies.
➵ A story filled with romance, tragedy, and addicting characters discussing several sensitive topics all at once.
❁How long would you hold onto love?❁
[ TW - Contains several accounts of homosexuality, suicide, mental illness ]
(ongoing - New updates once a week!)
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