Still Holding On
- Reads 7,584
- Votes 387
- Parts 75
MatureOngoing4h 54m
Last published Mon, Mar 20, 2023
❝Kid, don't do that!❞ It was as if I could almost feel him smile-Hear it in his voice, let the warmth of it deluge my heart.
❝Why not?❞
❝It tickles, Allan.❞ I looked into his eyes as he chuckled. Just then i noticed a strange spark of uncertainty and fear. Something deep and peculiar-far beyond joy.
And in just that moment, everything turned upside down. His hand reached for mine as i clasped to it firmly with the fear lurking into my chest and spreading just like the vicious numbness that took over my body.
➵ Allan Colebrooks has been diagnosed with OCD and is struggling with bullying, anxiety and suicidal thoughts ever since the freshmen year. Its junior year and he still feels lonely, stuck and misunderstood. Almost like he doesn't really matter to anyone. But with a sudden twist in his story, a new guy at school and the Help centre takes a sudden interest in Allan.
➵ Jace Gray isn't a perfect student with a perfect background. He was expelled from his previous school due to anger issues. He refuses to get himself a proper treatment as he believes he is perfectly fine and lives life to his own free will. Until he falls for the guy from his new school and Help centre, Allan Colebrooks.
➵ Everything feels beautiful. Everything feels amazing and perfectly fine in both their lives-a dream of evermore bliss-when one ill-fated night, one of them dies.
➵ A story filled with romance, tragedy, and addicting characters discussing several sensitive topics all at once.
❁How long would you hold onto love?❁
[ TW - Contains several accounts of homosexuality, suicide, mental illness ]
(ongoing - New updates once a week!)
#1 Highschool - 16.3.23
#1 Manxman - 16.3.23
#1 Malexmale - 16.3.23
#3 Lgbt - 16.3.23
#9 Ocd - 1.11.22
#13 Mentalhealth - 22.3.23
#22 Tragic - 18.3.23
#31 Bipolar - 18.3.23
#39 Queer - 22.3.23
All Rights Reserved
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
Oh How Times Have Changed
Eighteen. It's that time in your life that's nothing if not subjunctive: the mood you use when something might or might not have happened. It's a time that's full of change. Leaving school. Going to University. Leaving home. Saying goodbye to past people. Welcoming new people. Everything becomes different all at once. Parts are hard. Parts are easy. All of it: unavoidable. *** Approaching the end of his final year of education, Andy Williams feels lost. Life feels directionless and he craves something that he's not sure even exists. Going through the motions of life with no passion left to give feels numbing until he meets a friend that shows him there's light at the end of the tunnel.Complete
Second Chance
[Completed] ManxBoy ~ What if you have died but gotten a Second Chance? This is a story of an orphan boy who has been tossed around, used and broken in so many ways but one night everything changes. He only wished to live a life, to go to school, to make friends and grow up as a normal boy. One night, he dreamt of a boy who thought his life was not worth living. It was such a weird and depressing dream that he has long pushed it to the back of his mind. He's used having his body used in the most horrible way. One night, his owner brought in a group of customers. He fought them hard and tried to escape. He reached for the door only to be hit from the back. The last thing he saw was the group of men in state a of panic. When he woke up, he saw the crying face of a girl. A couple entered the room with tears in their eyes after the girl had left. They started calling him 'Luke'. He became confused but then he saw himself through the bathroom mirror's reflection. He started to panic and they called in the doctors to calm him down. He doesn't have a name, so why do they keep calling him that... He slowly realised that he is no longer in his own body but the body of the boy he dreamt of. After waking up, he takes on a mission to hide it from everyone and move on from his past. He wants to take this opportunity to live a life he always wanted. From there he starts to learn more about this "Luke" boy. Will he meet the man, who might've caused Luke to kill himself?! What will happen when he finds out that the man who despised Luke is showing interest in him although he's in Luke's body ?! - This book is about a romance between two men and has mature content. If you don't like prostitution, depression and suicidal tendency; this book isn't for you. But those things are only at the beginning of the story as you follow Luke's personal development and romance.Complete
Where Am I? (boyxboy)
Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness. ---------------------------- This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are. Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.Complete
The Pretty Boy In The Sheets| bxb |
*I do not own any rights to the photo used as my cover* *** #2 in TeenRomance (2026) #4 in Gayness (26) #9 in Teenager (2026) #11 in Coming out the closet (2021) I started this story in 2021... Everything is cringy and bad about this story, but I decided to complete this book since I got a lot of comments disappointed it was never finished. Eric didn't choose or really want to be gay, it just kind of happen- something that just happened, he can't even remember how he found out he was gay all he knew was that he was, And it wasn't like there's nothing wrong with that. Eric wasn't homophobic, he didn't feel disgusted in himself but rather disappointed. Everyone put pressure on him to be this perfect person, whether it being grades or sports or family- everything would be ruin if he came out. That's why he hadn't told anyone in the last couple years, not because he's scared- pft, Eric Goodmen scared? Star football player? Could have all the women by just a click of a button if wasn't for being in love with the same gender- scared? He was just a little 'inconvenienced'. One party changed everything though- to many drinks and making out with the wrong gender to send his fake perfect life crashing down when discovering out the first person he came out to, kissed, and had sex with was Callum Micheals. Mr pretty boy. Like life flashing before his eyes- Eric questioned whether Callum remembered or not? *** The smell of a nose itching fabric softer, too expensive for his parents to buy and the feel of warm feather pillows is what Eric woke up to. His body was somewhat tired, and sweaty but besides that, he felt good- he even let out a morning moan sitting up with his arms to look around, he was at Jackson's. A light ache from his hangover rang through his head reminding him that he drank a lot last night seconds later, he opened his mouth to hiss or groan in pain, but the groan that brought silence to the room wasn't his- it was, "Callum?!" Eric whisper shouted.Complete
No Need to Sleep Living in a Dream (B×B) ✔
Evan isn't keen on the idea of switching schools in his last year of high school, until uncovering his classmate's secret gives him a reason to stick around. Junior, who just wants to get through his last year in town in one piece, isn't happy about Evan finding out said secret. Dario is clever, but his compulsions and insomnia are getting on the way. It doesn't help that he is hopelessly falling for an infamous heartbreaker. Beau was supposed to be done with love and only be after hook ups, but things get complicated when he finds himself unable to get Dario off his mind. If only he had realized how damaging his impulsive behavior might be for someone like Dario. 𝘍𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴. 𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩 𝘴𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘭. 𝘖𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱. 𝗧𝗪: domestic violence, bullying, traumas, mentions of rape, panic attacks, PTSD, swearing, drugs, car accident Original story is from 2020-2021, but it's been edited (HEAVILY) 2022-2023. I've changed some things that went too far in the original version.Complete
One of Those Nights (boyxboy)
High school pretty much sucks for everyone, and this is no different for Reiss Irving. As his life starts crumbling around him in the most cliché ways he finds love (in a hopeless place). More love than he can handle. As a guy with no self esteem Reiss struggles with understanding why a bunch of guys are suddenly fighting over him. He finds himself enjoying the attention, but in the end he will have to choose just one. ____ Have I ever told him I'm gay? "Have I ever told you I'm gay?" I voice my thoughts. My friend's eyes widen and his jaw drops open. I honestly don't care that whatever other kids are in class already heard me. "No, you haven't. Thanks for telling me though I guess." he says breathily, his face completely incredulous. My grin widens and I nod at him. "You're welcome." ____ [BOOK 2] (can be read seperately)Complete
Calfuray Academy (ManxMan) ✔️
Highest Rankings: #3 malexmale #5 LGBT #5 LGBTQ What if you fell in love with someone you've never seen? ------------------------ Sebastian Terranova is an eighteen-year-old magic-user excited to join the famous Calfuray Academy. Known for it's inclusive and exciting classes; remarkable, state of the art facilities; and well-known --slash devilishly good looking-- teachers, the famous school had it all. So, obviously, Sebastian was thrilled to go. But soon after arriving at his new home, Sebastian is faced with a little situation. He finds himself falling for a complete stranger. So complete and strange, in fact, that he doesn't know their name or face. Add onto that his demanding classes; his new loving, yet nosy, friends; the pressure of hiding this secret 24/7; and the task of figuring out who he is actually in love with, the young magic-user has his hands full. Sebastian will have to make some big decisions and try to safely navigate his way through his stay at Calfuray Academy _________________________________________ Started: July 30, 2017 Finished: April 9, 2020Complete![To My Youth [BL]](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/163082485-256-k669219.jpg)
To My Youth [BL]
To cover the traces of his depravity, Gu Xiao constricted himself to the role of a jester while being torn between the idealisation of others and reality. Gu Xiao was a slacker in school, constantly truanting and playing around. Unknowingly, when he gets glued to sitting next to Lan Yuning, the school's top student, a linked past that they never knew they shared, gradually came back to haunt them. These students weaved their way through the tangling threads of familial relationships, financial issues, examinations, and identity while enjoying most of their last high school year. [You killed him.] [If you didn't ignore him that time, then he wouldn't have died.] [It's in the past. If you keep thinking about it, it's only going to do you harm.] [Sometimes I wonder... if you would be happier if I was the one who died back then instead.] __ [I like you.] [Why... Why would you like someone like me...?] ___________________________ Warning: mentions of suicide, homophobia, and domestic abuse THIS IS A SLOW BURN so if you want to read something fast and spicy then this book isn't for you :') Cover: @CASZETTESComplete
Forever Yours (MM)(COMPLETE)
BOOK FOUR - PART TWO: THE FOREVER SERIES "I have a mate. I marked my mate! I don't know what came over me. The kiss was so intense, and i could feel it all the way down to my freaking toes. It was amazing, it was everything. I got caught up in the moment, and now I've sealed my fate. To someone I wish I didn't. He's gonna be the fucking Alpha of our pack. What am i supposed to do with that? I don't want that responsibility, and I don't need it. I'm not capable of caring about it. So what did I do? Seal. My. Fate." Ethan comes from a happy home. He has the best dads, the best grandpas, and the best uncle. The best Aunts. He's close with all his family, and he loves them dearly. He's not quite sure about his sexuality, but he doesn't really care. He has two dads, and two grandpas for goddess sake. Who care's if hes gay? Ethan's never really experienced a pull toward someone. Until he met Connor Chase. Connor is a few years younger, and has an earthy scent. It's addicting. It's all consuming. Something deep and dark awaken's in Ethan, and he knows this boy has to be his. When Connors ceremony happens, and the truth comes out, Ethan can't stop himself from wanting the boy. And Connor? Never stood a chance. Connor Chase has a lot of issues. His mental health has never been the best, he struggles with his own demons in silence. No one noticed before, so why would they now?Complete
More Than Friends (BL)
TEEN ROMANCE Bay and Archie were inseparable, bound together by a friendship that had flourished since childhood. Now, as school seniors, their laughter echoed through familiar streets, a rhythm known only to them. They shared secrets beneath the sprawling oak tree in the park, dreams whispered late into the night, and countless adventures that painted their days with joy. But everything changed the moment 'she' entered their lives. With a radiant smile and a spark that lit up every room, she was magnetic, drawing their attention and shifting the dynamics of their unbreakable bond. Suddenly, the world they had known began to twist and turn, and the comfortable familiarity of their friendship felt threatened by the intoxicating allure of something new. A JOJO ORIGINAL Ranking #1 bxb (13/10/24) #1 school (13/10/24) #1 teen (13/10/24) #30 gay (17/06/24) #1 teenfiction (14/06/24) #1 bestfriends (09/07/24) #1 comingout (09/07/24) #2 boyxboyromance (07/04/2024) #6 bl (30/07/2024) Reader comments 335booklover "this is my heartstopper" Rla2j3d4e5e6e "i loved it sm, legit got butterflies on many oCcasions...i couldn't stop reading this once i started...love you author" Manifestingforyou "This is one of my favourite stories, I love the different perspectives and how each character has more to them. also like the full plotline but it's not like 11 hours long" ShaggyzezGutz "This needs a movie, we need a movie!" areo_dust *THIS SO GOOD ima reread this once again" QueenMimi540 "genuinely enjoyed reading this book and watching them start to figure out who they are and what they wanted, 10/10 would recommend" "I loved every bit of this book. I was so hooked. Really was looking for something like this and can happily say this book didn't disappoint me one bit. Thank you so much for writing this book" sexybrainnamu "actually, one of my new favorites, everything about it is amazing if possible i'd love to see a continuation on mark's character!!" MakoSwampComplete
Eighteen. It's that time in your life that's nothing if not subjunctive: the mood you use when something might or might not have happened. It's a time that's full of change. Leaving school. Going to University. Leaving home. Saying goodbye to past people. Welcoming new people. Everything becomes different all at once. Parts are hard. Parts are easy. All of it: unavoidable. *** Approaching the end of his final year of education, Andy Williams feels lost. Life feels directionless and he craves something that he's not sure even exists. Going through the motions of life with no passion left to give feels numbing until he meets a friend that shows him there's light at the end of the tunnel.
More detailsContent Guidelines