Still Holding On
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❝Kid, don't do that!❞ It was as if I could almost feel him smile-Hear it in his voice, let the warmth of it deluge my heart.
❝Why not?❞
❝It tickles, Allan.❞ I looked into his eyes as he chuckled. Just then i noticed a strange spark of uncertainty and fear. Something deep and peculiar-far beyond joy.
And in just that moment, everything turned upside down. His hand reached for mine as i clasped to it firmly with the fear lurking into my chest and spreading just like the vicious numbness that took over my body.
➵ Allan Colebrooks has been diagnosed with OCD and is struggling with bullying, anxiety and suicidal thoughts ever since the freshmen year. Its junior year and he still feels lonely, stuck and misunderstood. Almost like he doesn't really matter to anyone. But with a sudden twist in his story, a new guy at school and the Help centre takes a sudden interest in Allan.
➵ Jace Gray isn't a perfect student with a perfect background. He was expelled from his previous school due to anger issues. He refuses to get himself a proper treatment as he believes he is perfectly fine and lives life to his own free will. Until he falls for the guy from his new school and Help centre, Allan Colebrooks.
➵ Everything feels beautiful. Everything feels amazing and perfectly fine in both their lives-a dream of evermore bliss-when one ill-fated night, one of them dies.
➵ A story filled with romance, tragedy, and addicting characters discussing several sensitive topics all at once.
❁How long would you hold onto love?❁
[ TW - Contains several accounts of homosexuality, suicide, mental illness ]
(ongoing - New updates once a week!)
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"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."
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