Ataraxia
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Last published Mon, Aug 11, 2014
I slowly sat up and leveled myself with the world, everything seemed so gloomy through my eyes these days. My cold feet touched the equally cold floor fumbling for my hospital slippers, slipping and sliding the slippers around, i finally got the opening and placed my feet in them, they aren't what you'd call 'comfy'. I steadily stood up and immediately winced in pain as the shcok from the floor filled me. I crimged with everystep towards the end of my bed. The pills were so close, just a few more steps. I couldn't make, I sat back down and had a little cry, then took a few more cringing steps to the bottle.
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