The 8 pairs of eyes were glued to me, watching my every tiny movement,"Tell us what we have done!" Gerard's face was worried and curious. I put my skinny fingers to his face and skim them over his cheek, at the same time letting a tear roll down mine,"Because I'm drowning. And I don't want you guys to drown with me." His face paled, then Frank piped up,"But we all go down in the end." Ray nodded along, Mikey and Gerard kept the same expression,"I know. But I don't want to take you down with me now. It's too soon for you." I fumbled with my fingers,"The point is not when but it is that we do, Belle. We all go to hell."