Is this really my life!?

I'm Lina. I'm 17 and I have a fucked up life. My dad is in jail for selling all types of drugs and my mom is a god damn hooker. She's sucked at least 90
Cocks. I live with my grandma but she has altimeters and I fucking hate having I tell her my name and who I am to her every 2 minutes. I mean I love her to death but... Damn!!
I go to Johnson's middle school. I hate this school, I hate the teachers,and I hate the students. Except one. His name is Anthony. He's a tall 5,7 18 year old boy. Except the fact that he probably doesn't know I exist. I try talking to him but I freeze up when I talk to boys and I make a fool out of my self. I don't want to mess that up and Tale that chance so I never try talking to him. I would talk about it but my mom is always to busy sucking dick and my dad is in jail and my grandma will won't remember the first word I say so ya I do t have anyone to talk to about it. So yes this is really my life....deal with it!!