Lost But Beautifully Found

He saw me breaking, crying my heart out because my boyfriend cheated on me and seeing it with my own eyes burned my heart because of pain and agony. Hindi ko alam kung paano mag react. Nasasaktan ako ng sobra sobra dahil mahal ko siya at minahal ko siya ng higit pa sa sarili ko. Ibinigay ko sa kanya lahat para malaman at makita niya kung gaano ko siya kamahal pero hindi pa talaga sapat, kulang parin dahil pinili niyang maghanap ng iba.

At first the man who saw me from torment doesn't have the intention to save me from breaking but found himself doing it and I unintentionally grabbed his hand and allowed him to comfort me for a moment and chose to let go of his hand after a while.

I can't love again because I am still in the process of moving on, busy healing and fixing what's broken in me. I can't be with someone who loves me with all his heart because I am not yet capable of loving another man again though I felt it, he successfully mended my broken heart yet I'm afraid to give it a try.

Zelum Ordoza, the man who found me when I was clouded with tears and darkness, the man who mended the heart that was shattered into pieces, the man who pulled me from the darkness and showed me the light that I failed to see in life. He tugged me from my nightmare and gave me hope. The man who unveil the true essence of love.

Ngunit natatakot na akong magmahal ulit dahil ayoko ng masaktan, ayokong bumalik sa madilim na mundo kung saan tanging mga luha at unan lamang ang nakikisimpatya sa sakit na dulot ng pagmamahal na hindi sinuklian ng taong hinandugan ko ng buong puso. I don't want to lose myself again because of love.

With that, will he still love me even if loving again is not in my option box? Will he still have the courage to have me knowing that at the beginning, I don't have plans to be with someone again? Will he still choose to hold my hand even if letting go is the only choice I have?