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I'm not okay. I'm tired of living and here is my diary, I'm putting it here, hoping it might help someone know someone else out there is feeling the same way. Times are hard, money is right, I share a room with another grown woman in a trailer and i can't afford to live on what I'm making at (insert home improvement store name). It's getting to the point where all this, plus the fate of the world is weighing on my shoulders and I don't want to live anymore. it would be lovely to just drop off the face of the earth but I can't so I'm going to write about my days here. Call me whiny, weak or stupid but I feel brave.
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