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Bethy_Extroverted

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Bethy_Extroverted

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You know those people and things in life that we all take for granted like family and friends? That's me, I took everything for granted and now at this very moment in time I wish I hadn't. I wish I said I love you back to my mum and sisters. I wish I went out with my friends more, spent more time with them. I wish I went outside and admired the beauty that nature brings. But most of all I wish I didn't take him for granted. I should've done more to keep him, for him to love me the way I love him. It hurts me now knowing that I let him go as I did with everyone else in my life. I loved him as I've never loved anyone. He made me feel whole, like I've got everything that I could ever want. I would do anything for him. 

Nobody wants to die, believe me, I don't. You don't get to know the exact day you're going to die, the day your whole life flashes before you. When this happens all your regrets come flooding in and you wish you had done so much more so you could die in peace. I didn't choose to die this way but I guess I can't choose whether or not I do. 

Everyone has their story of how they die, well this is mine.All Rights Reserved

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Thank you for clicking on this story!! This is my very first story. Don't hate too much on me please! I am not very good at writing stories but I wanted to give it a try! This is a friends to lovers story with two males, so if you don't like that then don't read this! (THE FIRST CHAPTERS ARE TERRIBLE BTW BUT IT GETS BETTER I SWEAR) When I finish this im probably going to rewrite the first like 12 chapters ⚠️Tw!!⚠️ This story talks about self harm and has self harm in it so if you are sensitive to the topic, do not proceed. I hope you like it! Thank you!! Rankings: #30 friendstolovers 9/21/24 #11 friendstolovers 9/22/24 #249 sh 9/22/24 #8 friendstolovers 9/28/24 #201 sh 9/28/24