I've been there...(part 1)

Started so far at the bottom, I'm just blessed to still even be here.
Haunted by failure for 7 years, feeling worthless crying every night all kinds of fears.
Wonder if they'll miss me when my last breath leaves the atmosphere.
Have you ever felt like you were trying your hardest.
But your hardest was worsest, you were never close to perfect.
I'm sorry momma please love as I am.
I'm sorry fam I didn't fit in which ya.
I'm sorry for all the lies and all the sins I did which ya.
Even though I wasn't yours you treated me as your own.
Figured out the truth when I was only thirteen years old.
I deal with a disease that can only heal in my after life time.
I don't want one day to be my last nap time.
Please God make these demons go away.
I've had more than simple obstacles in my way.
Somehow I just can't face defeat, God got a hold on me, telling me the storm will soon decease.
But your the only one who can choose whether to stay on your feet.