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*COMPLETED* Over the years, I'd written many pieces of writing, and shared barely a fraction of them here. As of 2022, I found myself back here again, and in dire need of somewhere to write, and somewhere to share it. This is a collection of poems covering various states of emotion throughout a journey of healing, along with a few of my best from years before. I hope you all enjoy the journey I took through writing all of this.

"Please, let me go" I don't know why she wanted to kill me. I thought she was my best friend. She stabbed the knife into my chest, "He said only if you are dead, he'll accept me" I spatted the blood from my mouth, "H-He?" "Yes. When he confessed his love to you, do you remember how you rejected him?" "I d-did that because I k-knew you like -him" "Oh stop your drama 'I am a good girl' show. I have lots of money, I have so many ways to get what I like. But he asked me you to be dead. so of course to get what i want, I'll go to any extreme" Again she stabbed me in the same place, "Be a good a girl and have a Eternal sleep. Don't worry, I'll lead a happy life with the one I love" Before I closed my eyes, I saw her evil smile which pained me a lot. Why I have to die like this? It's unfair for me. I can't accept dying like this. It's really not fair. -------------------------- Daily update guaranteed. Please support me. Thank you.

Nothing left my mouth as I stared at him in shock. He truly believed that I was part of this. The man, who I had lived with and served for months. The man who I had protected with my life and soul. I stood still while, as he backed away from me quickly. "I trusted you with my life." His cry pierced around the empty room. He looked so destroyed and hurt, but mostly his face portrayed rage and determation. "And I protected you with mine." I spoke back loudly. I didn't hear myself say it but I knew I did. I look into his eyes even from our distance they seemed to wallow me in darkness. "I gave you mine." My voice was quiet and cracked. His face changed only for a second before his old one took over again. He doesn't believe me. It doesn't matter what I say or do he won't listen. He will still believe I am the bad guy. Just as Kane said, we will never be equals, we will never be fellow humans. We will always be monsters to them. "Yakov, I am not the bad guy." I plead one last time. His Russian accent comes out harsh with his next words. "Your right," he pauses, "you are the villain." I stumble back as if I had just been stabbed in the chest. It was a horrible feeling. It was never good with the emotions and yet I recognize the feeling as heart beak. I barely breathe in air as I regain my posture. A battle cry from somewhere distracts me momentarily. I suddenly remember Ewan. I glare at Yakov one more time before I take off after the cries of battle. Jade believes she started the war among the human and her kind. Nothing is as it was portrayed. The lies and the truth are hidden among each other. There is is no clear good and evil. How can there be if one does not know what is right and what is wrong. She was prepared to see death, prepared to inflict death upon others without mercy or remose. She was prepared to do her job which the Facility had given her. But now it doesn't seem so simple anymore. Instead she focuses on keeping her friends alive.

She knew his identity. He didn't know hers. She just wanted to have him around. He didn't. She knew they could not be together. He didn't. She didn't plan for longer. But he did. What will happen when he comes to know her real identity? Will he be able to stop himself in time from falling or will she have to face his wrath for hiding the truth. __________ "Do you believe in love?" He whispered in her ears making her jump. He was close, no, too close. She could feel his breath and hear her heart beat pounding very fastly. She took a few steps back to get her personal space secured. "You scared me." "Sorry, that was unintentional and I did not know that you are that weak." He smirked at her. "I am not weak.. That..." she saw him taking a step towards her. She gulped and then continued. ".. is a..." Another step. ".. normal.." One more step closer. ".. reaction." Another step. By now, he was again within her personal space. "I think we should go and see if Natey is done with her books." She whispered and laughed nervously and turned back only to be hold and pulled back to a hard chest. He had purposely swirled her along with him, changing their position. His front was dangerously touching her back. "It's a weak who always run away showing back." He whispered in her ears, his breaths touching her neck. His hands were placed just below her breast and touching most of her abs part. ___________________________________________________________________________ This is my first attempt at writing. So please bear with me :) Suggestions, feedback, comments and votes are welcomed. :)

*Featured book* [HIGHEST RANKING : #1 IN #controlfreak ] " I HATE YOU".. trying to hide my tears by taking a step back and suddenly felt his hand gripping my arm tightly, tight enough to give bruise on my skin, drag me towards him, forcing me to stand an inch away from his face close enough to feel his breath.... (giving same electrical chills on my body), looking into his eyes how can i hate you james, but i have to do this for the sake of me.. suddenly back to reality, now his grip his hurting me... "JAMESSS.... PLEASE STOP IT, you're hurting me". He realised it and losen up, hold me again from my waist, "YOU CANNOT HATE ME, DO YOU GET THAT" he said with anger in his voice. "NO, I HATE YOU AND LEAVE ME I AM NOT YOURS, YOU CANNOT TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I SAY OR NOT" yelling louder enough to make him more mad. "YES, YOU CANNOT HATE ME BECAUSE YOU ARE MINE" his lips near enough to touch my lips, can feel his breath, suddenly my eyes went to his lips and for a second i stared at his lips but again i look away, this time he pressed his lips to mine, forcing me to let him enter and i gave up, we are kissing more passionately with anger and want but suddenly i am back to the harsh reality and ive tried to remove him but i know i am not strong enough to remove him, but with the force i push him although i didn't want to but i have to, then he is looking at me without breaking an eye contact and said with smirk "I KNOW YOU ARE STILL MINE". Yes he is HER Disaster, Something has happened 5 years back which she still regret and wished, what if it it didn't happen, what if she hadn't met him at first place, what if she stopped him by keep coming back to her life. she cannot get away from him and cannot live with him although she want to be with him, but have to make a decision otherwise it will lead her nowhere but in the darkness.

*GUYS FYI THIS IS A VERY OLD BOOK THAT NEEDS TO BE EDITED READ AT YOUR OWN RISK* I was from a world of powers filled with magic I could do it myself and it was lots of fun I was the girl people looked up to it was amazing. Until our world was destroyed I was sent to earth with a powerful blast and I was only a few that survived the blast or let's just say.. I was the only one that survived. The world was new to me yet I was alone, scared, and helpless. Until I saw him. :PICTURES AREN'T MINE THAT ARE IN THE STORY: WARNING: story may include, Blood, violence, and bad language

This is for anyone that can't put there thoughts and feelings into words. Whether it be at your best, worst, most beautiful, or most tragic times. These poems will remind you of them. Or so I hope. Because I mean Shit Happens. What you should expect from this book: I am not trying to make excuses for why I push so many people away, I am not trying to make excuses for my actions, I don't get excuses, not anymore, No, I am merely providing explanations, If you don't like them, If you don't except them, If you just don't care, Then that's on you, Because I will not answer the question why anymore, I will bare my soul to you in the folds of these pages, Not saying a word, These are my explanations, These are me, Do with them as you will. And I mean, just don't be an asshole. Thanks. Kisses <3

TODAY: NO, I can't stay here. I should go out from here at any cost. But how? I am sure they will keenly watching me, and i should think of any other way around to escape from here. "Wait Wait", I made my thoughts shut to listen their conversations which is happening in front of my room behind the locked door. But What are they saying? "Oh no...this is going to be the worst than ever. No this can't happen, this should not happen...i should go from this place before i get ruined", My mind is throttling me about their converse. I make myself calm for few minutes and meanwhile i heard my door open sound. My eyes snapped seeing the scene there...yes the lady..she is the one who got me here to ths hell. But why she is coming here. She is giving a devilish smile to me and i hate it now. God, how should i react now..my eyes are snapping seeing her coming closer to me. ARGH!!!!! it's paining. She grabbed my hair tightly and warning me..yes exactly she is warning me to behave nicely when he comes..but who is the he? Who is gonna come here and why? My mind is thinking in all directions, how to handle them and the so called "HE". Tears dropped in my cheeks and it is finding it's own way to roll down. *********************************************************************************************** Here is the roller coaster ride of the leads, how they met and how they going to end up with each other. This book will explain the pain, the passion, the love and the need for each other. Enjoy reading !!!

This is a collection of all the poetry I have written. Some sadness, some happiness, and a concotion of both. Poetry is my way to vent and let my emotions flow freely. Thanks for checking it out, and I really hope you enjoy what you find! And please -- Feel free to comment any suggestions to my writing! I'm in love with getting criticism (no, I'm not even freaking kidding. I know it sounds weird, but I really am!) I am eager to learn to be a better writer and grow surrounded by those suggestions and wonderful, amazing, awesome readers I have! Thank you guys again so much! It means the world to me! #68- hard (4/6/19) 1K Reads! (10/19/19)