Long winter had left you with some additional kgs and you were very sulky about it. You knew you were not fat, but you didn't feel yourself. This was not you, not the real one! You wanted to hide and wait for better times. A/N: I've gained some weight recently and I am not very happy about it. I had to get it out of my system.

When you're stuck inside a layer of skin you never asked for, what does the soul do? It cries out in poems and pictures, and words that have so much meaning to anyone if they look hard enough. It winces in pain every time the pen hits the paper and shouts in agony every time the mirror is reflected upon a burning face. This is a collection of me. My eating disorder, my depression, anxiety, my thoughts, my words, my pain. If you've ever wondered what it was like inside the mind of an anorexic, a bulimic, a chronically depressed woman, here is the answer. A memoir written by me. There is no specific order you should read this book. Choose a random chapter from the table of contents, and read. Take a little in, leave a little out. ****** There is a major trigger warning for almost every story in here. If you are sensitive to numbers, or ideas or anything of this matter, this book may not be for you.

NON OF THIS IS MY ORIGINAL WORK! It is a collective of information from different sources. I want to help those with Candida as well to help control and manage Candida. It's more than just "symptoms."

»»----*.·:·.✧ ✦----«« 𝑭𝑳𝑨𝑴𝑬𝑺: 𝒂 𝒅𝒂𝒃𝒊 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒏𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒍 »»----*.·:·.✧ ✦----«« ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ★ ₊ . °╰➜ 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ┊ ┊ ┊. ✧ ° . • 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐨 ┊ ┊° .✫ ﾟ. ꒷𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐰𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐨'𝐬 𝐞𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐧, ┊ ✦ ₊° .𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭. 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐲 ☆𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞? • cross posted and more updated in ao3 - hellokarennsays !

I stare at the girl in the mirror, feeling the horrible scratchy material of the skinny jeans, harsh against my skin. I hate skinny jeans. But I want to fit in. I want to be one of those pretty, confident skinny girls. I want to look at the mirror and acknowledge that I am beautiful and appealing to boys. I'm not just a fat lump. I want to feel love like in the love stories. I want to know that someone out there is right for me. That someone loves me. I know that my Mom and my big brother love me. But that's all. I'm not even one of those half-decent girls that have one best friend: I am no one. **** This is the story of thirteen year old, Adeline, who is mercilessly made fun of because of her size. This is the story of how she proved those girls wrong. This proves that if you're not happy either, YOU CAN CHANGE!

The journey of enlightenment (JOE) needs to be worked out - IN WRITING (says my guide). "Okay then, let's do this!!!", I finally say with fists raised to the sky. So, what are you really in for, my dear reader? Possibly a phrenetic mess. This is not a story. It is a story destroyer. Be warned as it might affect your very perception of reality. This is a part of yoga. It is the inquiry aspect and meant to lead toward Full Awakening, Truth Realization, Self Realization aka, as some call it, Enlightenment. It will read differently in each chapter because this is like a personal diary of a process, however, it is also being written with you in mind. Each "chapter" will be an entry, diary style, of me trying to work out what is True. This is a process Jed McKenna (the inspiration of this endeavor) calls "autolysis". This will be happening in real time and not with a bunch of editing. I don't know what it will look like. Maybe a reality show in words? We shall see. Wish me luck.

Mariyah collin is a thick girl, she have a huge crush on this guy name Dustin for 3 years and she's obssesed with him . Dustin is a fit, handsome, popular guy in school. He hate fat girls mostly he hate Mariyah, he like to fat shame/verbal abuse her and that make Mariyah hurt alot, but she's hiding it. Mariyah suffer from, Insecurities, deepresion, suicidal thoughts, crying everyday and night before sleep. she has no self-confidence, she just hate herself and wanted to end her life just because of Dustin and her thick body but she's trying to stay strong. Mariyah is an only child. She had a lovely parents trying their very best to support her. She can lose weight but there are some reason that make her hard to lose weight. Mariyah didn't tell anyone that she suffers from pain and suicidal stuff. she kept it all by herself not even her family and friends until one day everything has spilled out. what kind of reason? why did she like Dustin that much? what happened to Mariyah later? Is she going to lose weight? will Dustin like her if she lose weight? why does Mariyah kept her feelings to herself? what happens after everyone knows knows about it? (more question?) Read the book to find out all the answers *°Based on a real life story°*

<<Read Description!>> You were in a really bad state, all throughout your life. Soon you made a choice, a choice that was meant to be your last. Until you open your eyes in someone's arms. You realize who it is and wonder why he would save someone like you. He's not like any other man, he cared for you. You stayed with him for a while and you guys became close. Once you start catching feelings how will he react? Keep reading to find out! (x fem reader) ~~~~| *Just a heads up, this is an AU where U.A. didn't accept students under the age 17. So that way they would fully understand their quirks. Along with Y/N is 18 while Hawks is 22!* !This story does talk about depression, self harm, and suicide. I will put a trigger warnings throughout the story! ~~~~| Started- November 10, 2020 Finished- December 18, 2020 - #1 FictionalCharacters ( 02/04/2021 ) #1 MyHeroAcademia ( 02/27/2021 ) #1 AnimeFanFiction ( 03/25/2021 ) #1 MHA ( 03/31/2021 ) #1 Anime ( 03/07/2021 ) #1 XReader ( 10/27/ 2021 ) #2 HawksxReader ( 02/07/2021 ) #2 Hawks ( 02/11/2021 )

Life isn't always as it seems. People can not always be trusted, even the ones you have believed your entire life, they wont help you here. Everyone will believe you are Toxic, barely human. Only an experiment worthy of being called a 'Test Subject'. Now Wake Up. It was only a dream, wasn't it? You can still trust the ones you believe, you don't have to face the truth yet. (This book is a first draft, the real book will be available to buy, however it isn't published yet, there will be grammatical errors and much of the scenes are ones I came up with on the spot, this book hasn't had any editing whatsoever, the published version will read more smoothly and be more overall enjoyable than the first draft.)