Frightened of the world (Being Autistic)

Louisa has known that she is the weirdo, the misfit, the girl who doesn't fit in anywhere all her life at school, in work, at college, and when she meets the father of her future children, it starts becoming clearer and more disturbing to her, so she starts asking why can't she just be herself without being shouted at or bullied. To make herself feel loved, she starts having sexual relations outside the marriage. "I said it once, to love others, you have to love yourself first." Louisa didn't love herself, she felt like an imposter, an invader, a person not worth anything. But discovers she can get out of a rut and the depression weighing her down