A story of events leading up to what "should" have been my last day alive. There was hope. I just couldn't see it. I was completely blinded by my pain. I saw no other way out. I want people to understand hoe it feels to have a mental illness, to understand how it feels to believe without a doubt that you have to die. This is my story of my greatest attempt. All of the events and details are totally true. Some names have been changed.