"Get down, please I'm begging you." Ashton pleaded with tears rolling down his cheeks. "I'm sorry Ashton but you caused this. Every miserable part of it. Your to busy trying to sleep with ever girl in a 50 foot radius to see that I fucking love you. Yeah as in I want to be with you for the rest of your life. But you went and messed it up. Now I'm standing here crying and asking myself why should I do this? so many people love me and want me to live, but then I realized that I don't want to live if the one guy that I want to love me doesn't and can't because he's too busy either fucking sluts or doing drugs. And if I don't have you I have nothing. And with nothing left I have nothing to lose. So with everything I wanted to say off my chest" I took in a breath, "I Love you Ashton but I have to go now." I let one more tear slip from my cheek and I smiled for the first and last time not breaking eye contact with him until I turned to see everything below me. And jumped.