**WARNING: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM, AND OTHER MATURE CONTENT** This is something I put together. These chapters are going to be what's in my head. The thoughts I think of, the images in my head, my confessions, everything. I am open and willing to put my thoughts onto the internet. As you read these, please take caution. And before you ask, I am getting help. I have been for about 9 years. I am currently 14 and am just trying to live as best as I can.