Will I win? Will I lose:? It's scary, how much people hang onto faith just to be able to survive, like a game of Russian Roulette, pure l u c k . You never know if your luck will be on your side, or if it will kill you. That's why I decided not to have faith at all, so I can't be deceived by a mystery force, or be given false hope and clues that will only lead to my despair and depression. It sure has taken a lot these few months but everything will go it's way when I do the work I need, I don't sit back with a faith and hope that I have no proof will bring me success, so I work for my success myself.