Falling Into Capitulation
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This book about my true life is for the people out there who have suicidal problems.Bullies thinks its funny to joke around and break a person's heart, when it's not.They think its cute, well they thought wrong.Three out of every five people have suicidal issues, and depression.Thousands of people a year has issues:suicide,depression,self image.Half of that total acctually do die.It's not a joke.People get hurt everyday.You would think they would be fine.People has been pushed to such a breaking point that they choose to commit suicide,self-harm, and sometimes, even murder.Bullying isnt a joke,, and everyone needs to know that.I've been having this problems alot.We're sick of it.We are sick of being tormented to such a point, where suicide isnt an option.Its what we are forced to do.It become our new goal.And the bystanders.You stand around and laugh like it's funny.You can laugh all you want, but you will always end up being the person that will be hurt in the end.We are completley done.This is not a feeling someone would want.Your a victim, and it isnt right.You should feel comfortable in your own skin not being afriad to go to school everyday, afraid to be scared of someone that chooses to torment you.It's not pleaseant.
And it hurts.
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