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Is it a CURSE? [Deku Angst]
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(THIS IS DISCONTINUED, IM NOT REALLY INTERESTED IN WRITING THIS STORY ANYMORE, AND MY WRITING STYLE HAS JUST CHANGED ALOT SINCE I STARTED WRITING THIS 5 YEARS AGO, SORRY)
This is a Tododeku story so yea it might take a while to get there but yea!
It all started when Izuku Midoriya or "Deku" met Katsuki Bakugou or "Kachan" as he would say. So young. Only at age of 4 to realize not all people are born equally... Not all people have a good family... Not all people have love... When Deku was 4 he delt with alot. Still at 4 he got diagnosed with a disease Hanahaki... At age 6 he started cutting and had anxiety attacks and mental break downs. he broke the disease when he 12 it broke after the first attempt... the first attempt to kill himself... the disease stayed even after surgery it grew bigger so he started taking pills that helped the disease die down but it was still there... After 3 more attempts to kill himself he met All Might which led to another attempt but when he woke up in the hospital All Might was there he said he thought Deku was just like a hero and offered him his power. Of course he said yes and now hes going to UA with 2 more attempts of killing himself before he got accepted no one knows hes depressed... But hes starting to get tired of the act...
[WARNING]
!CURSING!
!ABUSE!
!SUICIDE!
!DEPRESSION!
!LGBTQ!
!SELF HARM!
!ANXIETY!
!These are not my characters!
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