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i hate him more than i hate myself

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(cover is a photo taken by me in the gay district of Belfast, Ireland)

Alex has made up her mind. Magnus was sweet and all but he most certainly was not the guy for her.
He wasn't infamously popular but he certainly had a following. Probably because his father, Frey, was one of the best surgeons of their time and Magnus was to follow suit. 
Or maybe it was because Magnus so easily made his way into her thoughts, distracting her from her school work or her art.
So no, Magnus was not the guy for her.

But what if all that changed and they moved to become friends to lovers. 

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IMPORTANT: keep in mind as this story progresses it may have minor notes of abuse, anxiety, and depression. If you are sensitive to these topics, please be mindful. This may not be the story for you.All Rights Reserved

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You Know What? F**king Bite Me! (How Did You Dare To!?) [MALEC ~ Alec X Magnus] by LukePoiz

"I just hated him, the totally attractive and totally stupid him. That perfect smile he would always flash out like life was peaceful and there weren't problems at all. Sometimes it felt like some kind of aura surrounded him, almost as nothing could go wrong by his side. I hated, how hard I had tried to fight this... 'things' I was feeling for him. I didn't matter how hard I tried, how far I looked out for something wrong about him... I always found nothing. But what I hated the most was how I wasn't able to really hate him." WARNING: Be advised that this story has an abrupt stop, and that it "ends" with an open ending.

BETA MINE (mxm || lgbtq) by notbackingdown

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Lights in his eyes by BarbaraSz8

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Prove it. by WildGochi

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