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My mind ... my mind ....MY FUCKING MIND !!  ...I am going insane ..I appeal to these drugs that's bad for my body ...I am losing my sanity ..drowning  myself with these emotions ..My words ..My fucking words ..It's crying to be voiced  ..The outcast ..The crazy cry baby ..The over dramatic ...The problem ..The reason and the always  look down on ...I hate it ..I hate all of it the humans mane I hate them ..Useless Cruel ..Selfish WHORES !!! I was sane ..I was innocent I got consumed  ..I got consumed with depression  ...(An- An - Anxiety ...  I AM A MOTHERFUCKIN BEAMERBOY !! The music keeps me going ...Vapes ... *Inhale * the PAIN IN MY BODY The anger ... Confusion ... DISTORED ...IMAGE ...SKIN .... FRIENDSHIP ...RELATIONSHIP but love ... it's so much I don't get it why do I keep why do I ... SILENCE ... WHY  DO I .... WORDS!! Come on ..EMOTIONS  ...... I can't express...It's cold I am freezing ...I am cold ...Affection makes me warm I am trying to be warm not cold I will shiver and my hands will become numb .. I am scared ...THE REJECTION *Shivers * I am the REJECT ...*Bite Nails ..PULLING HAIR OUT CONFUSION *  I NEED MY VAPE * INHALE *  💨 NEED TO BREATHE YOU KNOW ..LET ME BREATHE... GASP.... i am tired .. SUFFOCATING..WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME !!!!!! I AM NOT A FREAK SHOW ... you can't get in my head ..It's a maze .. ONE WAY IN .... but where is OUT ? LET ME OUT ... YOU HEAR ME ? Take a right turn ... WHATS WRONG ??...SANITY  ... HELLO ?? Damn it .... FIND ME ...ACCEPTANCE??? ...FIND ME ... Isis Go to sleep let me rest ... get out my head GET OUT MY HEADDDDDDDDDDD ... stop .. stop ....STOPPPPPP STOP STOP STOP . I cried for help and nobody heard me ... 16 years later ...I have scares on me ... I got pain ...FUCKED UP ... I am ....I wonder if I die if anyone would care ...Everyone seem to not give af ...They care when they want to . I am dying mane .....I AM DYING ......SELFISH...Put me last put everyone first ...  ALWAYS . ... hmmmm...I don't need a therapist ..All Rights Reserved

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HATE TO LOVE YOU ✅ by shakab00m

" YOU ARE SO ANNOYING! JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE ! WITHOUT YOU , MY LIFE WOULD BE BETTER ! " I bit my lip and tried so hard to hold back my tears , " I-I'm sorry...I-I didn't mean to be a disturbance in your li-life...I-I will distance *sniff* myself from you from today onwards..." N&J ------------------------------------------------------- " F*ck off ! I WON'T BELIEVE A SINGLE CRAP OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH ! STOPP USING ME TO SATISFY YOUR BOREDOM ! " I regretted everything ," I'm sorry...*sniff* I-I really am..." S&T ------------------------------------------------------- " Get away from me ! I REALLY HATE YOU ! " I was hurt by her words , " I'm sorry...I don't know what I did to make you hate me so much but... " M&C ------------------------------------------------------- " Am I that unlucky in love ? Why whenever I really like someone , that person like someone else ? " I was trying really hard not to show my sadness ," Can't you see me ! I'm just right beside you ! CAN'T YOU HEAR MY HEART BEATING FOR YOU ?! " I wanted to say those words but I just can't do it... M&D ------------------------------------------------------- " Will you accept me back in your life ? " * silence * " i'm sorry... " D&J Start : 2nd May 2024 End : 3rd May 2024

BONDAGE by zaraMbts08

The way he looks at me, his gentle unobtrusive touch, his deep voice telling me: "You're mine at night!" the way he ignores me on purpose. Have I fallen for him? In bondage to him? Why am I so attracted to him? Love? Absolutely not. He's not the type for love and he's made that clear to me a few times. He calls me his "kitten!" And I lose my mind every time he comes near me. My goodness, I want more and more. Sneak into his room, touch him without asking. Feeling his skin against mine, running my fingers through his hair and kissing him. Gosh Nika stop it, he's colder than Siberia, he thinks he can own everything. He already owns me without me wanting it. Our little secret games make me forget who I am. He makes me forget who I am.

Not So Broken (West Coast College Book 3) by BeccaRuth_

tw's: verbal and emotional child abuse, body shaming, adhd rep After spending my first two years as the college fuck boy, I've decided that I'm done with that reputation for the rest of college. Especially when one of my past hookups starts lurking around and spreading rumours about me that could have me kicked off the team. So when my friend moves out of my apartment, I'm looking for a new roomie. And when my new roomie ends up being my shy, bookworm tutor who's looking to get her ex-boyfriend off her back, how can I resist not asking her to be my fake girlfriend until we're both out of hot water. But I have a hard time trying to remember that this is all fake.

BROKEN COURAGE (Broken Redemption Book 3) by ArianaClarkAuthor

While tortured and held captive as a prisoner of war, she became my reason to keep breathing. The force that fueled my will to fight. To survive. When I woke after the rescue to discover the life I thought I was coming home to was but a figment of my imagination, hallucinations brought about by pain, desperation, and isolation... it nearly broke me. Fifteen years since I first lost her, at last, we have a second chance. Holding her in my arms, finally feeling the warmth of her skin as she melts under my touch, is like a dream. She and her two little girls are now as essential to my existence as the air I breathe. However, just as things start falling into place, the universe steps in, threatening to take it all away. I used to think that choosing her cost me everything I'd ever loved, but now I see that in choosing her and her children, I have the chance to reclaim all that I lost. They are my salvation. My true path to redemption. Which is why I'll leave no stone unturned, why I will scorch this world to the ground if that's what it takes to save them. And when I do, I will fight to convince her once and for all they are meant to be mine, just as I was destined to be theirs.

Elemental: Love in pieces #1 by kcnamiswan

Are you up for a steamy romance? One night, one mistake that will change her life forever. He never thought he would feel anything again, especially love, until he met her. Everybody thinks that she's the quiet type, Nobody knows who she really is except for her best friends Sarah, Natalia and Sky. All anybody knows is that she came here for one thing to graduate, and that's all she can possibly focus on, right? She's an all A's student and she never fails to win. Nobody expects such a goody two shoes to be as bad as she really is. There's no way a person can fall in love with someone overnight, right? Because that's impossible. I'm not supposed to be loved, and I'm not supposed to feel love. I'm a loner who stays by herself. The only exception is my friends, and that's just friendship. I will never ever fall in love. The idea of it makes me scared. For somebody to love me back is impossible because everybody that's ever loved me left me, either in death or in literal sense. I'm a curse that has not been broken. The Night Sky. He's the type of guy every girl wants, but only a select Few can get. At what cost will he pay? By pursuing this non-Blueblood. Because in his world, reputation is everything and this will taint it. But he doesn't care. He only cares about her. Everything about her is beautiful to him, which she seems to find impossible, and he doesn't know what to do because he's never felt anything before in his life and that, that is what scares them both the most. How can one's taste be so addictive, so powerful? Why am I so drawn to her? I've never felt this way about anything at all in my whole entire life. Ever. Nothing. I feel nothing. I've always felt nothing. So why does she make me feel something? I'm drawn to her, and I cannot stop. And I will not stop at any cost. I will get this girl because she is mine and she always will be. She just doesn't know it yet. I am a curse. People always leave me in death, but maybe she is my cure.

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭| 𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 |𝟏𝟖+ by Psycho_xbabyx

**𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐚 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐳** Panic surges through me, and before I know it, I'm turning on my heel, trying to run, to escape the impending punishment. I barely make it a few steps before I feel his hand clamp down on my hair, yanking me back with terrifying force. "Going somewhere, little girl?" "P-please let g- ahh! Please! H-Hurts me!" "Afraid, are we now, baby?" His voice is a snarl now, filled with fury. "L-leave m-me," tears sting my eyes, but I refuse to let them fall. I'm scared of him, scared of what he'll do to my friend, scared of what he'll do to me. His grip on my hair tightens and I wince, choking back a sob. "Oh, why? Don't you like my hands on you, baby?" He mocks hurt that instantly turns back into anger. "But you were fine when that fucker touched you, ain't that right?" Then he pulls a silver knife out of his suit, twirling it lazily between his ink-covered knuckles and my blood freezes at the sight of that psychotic grin. ***** People quaked with fear at the sound of his name and me along with them. He was Demetrios 'the God' Nikolayev and he was first in command of Russian mafia. He was a true psychopath who enjoyed hurting people, and I hated him for that. The worst thing - he owned me. "Try to accept the darkness, because from now on, it will be your only light." I tried so hard, but I couldn't understand it back then. How possibly can darkness be light? ***** This is not a vanilla romance but a dark, toxic, perverted, obsessive story. The book contains mature themes such as foul language, bdsm, sexual and abusive content, kinks, blood, manipulation, etc. Please keep that in mind.

Escaping the Monster's Embrace by Mentally-Insane

Everything changed when they came out of hiding, terror spread across the world as people began to question if our presidents and our global leaders lied to us and weren't from the same race. The Beasts blended in amongst us as if we were the same, except humans didn't have the same predatory instincts and we couldn't change our forms like they could. Soon after we learnt that we weren't the only species people began going missing. Some were unlucky and taken as something that the Beasts called a Mate that one word made fear spread throughout my veins, I would rather sell my soul than have one of them mutts chain me to them. Six months went by before the government, that was un-tainted by this vile race began to take action into their own hands contacting other countries and militaries causing the great war to happen, sending both my parents off to fight for our rights. Only one of them came back, two months was the longest we lasted before we were overpowered by them. Six years of living in this dysfunctional environment and my hatred had never dwindled. Some people still believed in god and had faith in him, I didn't know what I believed in but I prayed like everyone else that I would get through another day without hearing the soul crushing word 'Mate'. DARK THEMES THROUGHOUT. UNEDITED © All rights reserved© #1 in hunt 19/06/2019 #1 in human 19/06/2019 #1 in sanity 19/012019 #3 in mate 19/06/2019 #4 in mates 19/06/2019 #5 in hunted 19/06/2019 #1 Post-apocalyptic 30/8/19 #8 in dystopian 7/10/19 #4 in Escape 24/10/19

Someone New by wambuimuiruriii

"There comes a point where you no longer care if there's a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You're just sick of the tunnel." - Who I am doesn't matter. How I got here doesn't matter. What matters now is I'm getting help, right? That's what they tell me here. They tell me that the road to recovery feels like a terrible butt fuck, but the fact that you're on the path to begin with, is all that matters. So as I sit in this circle of fuck ups, I realize just how different I am from them. I didn't attempt suicide because my mother was a crack addict who didn't want me. My father wasn't abusive. I didn't have a sibling die in a car accident. I was never really bullied either. I attempted suicide because, for the first time in years, I thought I had found something that could make me feel again... and after not feeling much at all for far too long, perhaps I went a bit overboard

If I Try (Lesbian Story) by Balueyes

My life in ruins, this is where I'm at currently. I was living a lie, lying to people and most importantly to myself. You can act straight all you want, you can try to convince yourself that, but no matter how hard you try. The truth is always revealed. What did I do? I stroked her face, and told her she was still beautiful, then I bent down and kissed her. One of those soft, yet deep, gut wrenching, I'll always love you, but I have to let you go, goodbye kisses. Then I rested my forehead on hers and closed my eyes. I saw the past that we had, all of the memories we had together, I took them in, I felt the feelings again, I processed them. Then I saw the dreams that we dreamed for our future, I saw all of our plans that we made, I felt them, I felt the pain of what would never be, and then I released it all. I didn't realize I was sobbing until I felt her hand graze over the tears. I opened my eyes, blinked away the tears I had left, and smiled. She returned my smile. We knew at that point that no matter what happened, we would be ok.............. This is my struggle, this is my journey. Join me for the ride, but make sure you wear your helmet.

Unintentional Passion by PlayNmyCurlz

Geovanni Have you ever gotten that feeling that somebody was watching you? And that person who was watching you wasn't normal. I have felt that way all of my life; but then again I felt as if I went missing nobody would even notice or care I was gone. I am 23 and just graduated from college. I was there an extra year because I had to take care of my family. I had to transfer back into the city and pick up the extra work because my mom died, and my dad became addicted to anything that would numb his pain. My little sister and brother would be lost without me here. But now I could care less. A cold breeze blew through my window waking me up from my thoughts. I looked over in the corner and saw that nothing was there. It was odd because I felt like someone well more like something was there. It had to be my imagination getting the best of me. I laid back in my bed and closed my eyes. Then all of a sudden I got the feeling I wasn't alone. But the really strange thing is that even if there was someone in here with me I felt safe. Jordan. I watched her as she slept. In fact I have been watching her since she was born. I have waited half a century to find that one person. I think I have finally settled on her. She was my choice. I know. After being in as many relationships as I have you know things. I felt my fangs tingle. Her blood smelled so sweet. Her heartbeat was steady and strong. I took my tongue and ran it across my fang. The temptation to indulge in her red liquid was far too strong. I let out a low growl and jumped out her window. I was ready for a hunt. "Did you see her Jordan?" "Yes, and tomorrow night you will turn her," "Why do I have to turn her?" "Ezra, you know once you turn them, they hate you," "I didn't hate pops," "You wanted to join though," "True, but first see if she wants to be turn before you jump to conclusions," I nodded my head, before me and Ezra took off to find some fresh blood for the night.

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HATE TO LOVE YOU ✅

" YOU ARE SO ANNOYING! JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE ! WITHOUT YOU , MY LIFE WOULD BE BETTER ! " I bit my lip and tried so hard to hold back my tears , " I-I'm sorry...I-I didn't mean to be a disturbance in your li-life...I-I will distance sniff myself from you from today onwards..." N&J ------------------------------------------------------- " Fck off ! I WON'T BELIEVE A SINGLE CRAP OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH ! STOPP USING ME TO SATISFY YOUR BOREDOM ! " I regretted everything ," I'm sorry...sniff* I-I really am..." S&T ------------------------------------------------------- " Get away from me ! I REALLY HATE YOU ! " I was hurt by her words , " I'm sorry...I don't know what I did to make you hate me so much but... " M&C ------------------------------------------------------- " Am I that unlucky in love ? Why whenever I really like someone , that person like someone else ? " I was trying really hard not to show my sadness ," Can't you see me ! I'm just right beside you ! CAN'T YOU HEAR MY HEART BEATING FOR YOU ?! " I wanted to say those words but I just can't do it... M&D ------------------------------------------------------- " Will you accept me back in your life ? " * silence * " i'm sorry... " D&J Start : 2nd May 2024 End : 3rd May 2024