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My mind ... my mind ....MY FUCKING MIND !! ...I am going insane ..I appeal to these drugs that's bad for my body ...I am losing my sanity ..drowning myself with these emotions ..My words ..My fucking words ..It's crying to be voiced ..The outcast ..The crazy cry baby ..The over dramatic ...The problem ..The reason and the always look down on ...I hate it ..I hate all of it the humans mane I hate them ..Useless Cruel ..Selfish WHORES !!! I was sane ..I was innocent I got consumed ..I got consumed with depression ...(An- An - Anxiety ... I AM A MOTHERFUCKIN BEAMERBOY !! The music keeps me going ...Vapes ... *Inhale * the PAIN IN MY BODY The anger ... Confusion ... DISTORED ...IMAGE ...SKIN .... FRIENDSHIP ...RELATIONSHIP but love ... it's so much I don't get it why do I keep why do I ... SILENCE ... WHY DO I .... WORDS!! Come on ..EMOTIONS ...... I can't express...It's cold I am freezing ...I am cold ...Affection makes me warm I am trying to be warm not cold I will shiver and my hands will become numb .. I am scared ...THE REJECTION *Shivers * I am the REJECT ...*Bite Nails ..PULLING HAIR OUT CONFUSION * I NEED MY VAPE * INHALE * 💨 NEED TO BREATHE YOU KNOW ..LET ME BREATHE... GASP.... i am tired .. SUFFOCATING..WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME !!!!!! I AM NOT A FREAK SHOW ... you can't get in my head ..It's a maze .. ONE WAY IN .... but where is OUT ? LET ME OUT ... YOU HEAR ME ? Take a right turn ... WHATS WRONG ??...SANITY ... HELLO ?? Damn it .... FIND ME ...ACCEPTANCE??? ...FIND ME ... Isis Go to sleep let me rest ... get out my head GET OUT MY HEADDDDDDDDDDD ... stop .. stop ....STOPPPPPP STOP STOP STOP . I cried for help and nobody heard me ... 16 years later ...I have scares on me ... I got pain ...FUCKED UP ... I am ....I wonder if I die if anyone would care ...Everyone seem to not give af ...They care when they want to . I am dying mane .....I AM DYING ......SELFISH...Put me last put everyone first ... ALWAYS . ... hmmmm...I don't need a therapist ..
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