Look At Things Different
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MatureOngoing25m
Last published Sun, Nov 16, 2014
"No you can't do that."
"I don't want you to embarrass me."
"You don't care about me."
"You're so ugly."
"No you're not allowed to do that."
Then what do you want me to do ? I might only be 15 but sometimes I just wanna do what makes me happy. You're taking away everything that I believe makes me genuinely happy. I want to make myself happy. I've lived my life wanting nothing more then too make everyone happy. I didn't care about myself. Never have. But I want this feeling go away. I want my depression to go away. I want to stop having suicidal thoughts. I want to stop harming myself. I want to make my self happy. And right now no ones helping me.
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Meet Alana she's only 15 and lives in a small town in New York. She's been fucked up in the head and is trying to make herself happy. Her depression is getting worse and she wants to make herself happy. What happens when she meets a new boy at school that will change her for either good or bad ?
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