Knjiga Učenik življenja, ki sem jo dobila pri 14. letih, me je peljala na pot raziskovanja življenja, mojega življenja. Učenik popolnega življenja je knjiga, ki bi si želela, da jo takrat v resnici dobim. Ki bi mi dala odgovore na vprašanja, da bi se učila iz nje, ne iz bolečih izkušenj. Ampak te izkušnje so mi bile potrebne, da sem osvojila določena spoznanja.
Zdaj začenjam razumeti zakaj tako dolgo, toliko let nisem mogla dokončati te knjige in jo dati ven, v javnost. Zakaj se je pisala toliko let in toliko spreminjala. Najprej sem osvajala znanje in izkušnje o fizičnem telesu, nato sem se učila in testirala kaj vse je zmožen um. Potem sem prišla do vprašanja KDO SEM JAZ in KAJ JE MOJE POSLANSTVO. Tukaj sem skozi izkušnje začela dajati teorijo v prakso in nato skozi opazovanje željo razumeti sebe, prakso v teorijo.
Ob znanju o živčnem sistemu in traumi sem postopoma lupila plasti sebe, do svojega bistva. Prej sem morala spoznati še svojo medgeneracijsko traumo in ob tem spoznati svoje prednike in jih iz srca občudovati. Skozi vse to se je vsak dan v meni začel naseljevati nek nov občutek - notranji mir, popolna ljubezen, hvaležnost za vse. Trenutno se počutim kot, da sem sredi hurikana ali orkana - tista sredina znotraj, ki je mirna, kjer se nič ne dogaja, okoli pa se vse vrti, vse se uničuje. Po orkanu izgleda, da je vse uničeno, podrto in je treba od začetka. Ampak začneš iz drugega začetka, začneš z občutkom notranjega miru, spoznanja, da je moralo iti vse staro, da lahko zgradiš novo.
Knjiga je nastala kot moja potreba izraziti se, dati ven moja spoznanja. Za sebe, za tebe.
An internal voice whispered, "Call him."
But I chose not to.
I dismissed it once more, saying, "He never liked me anyway."
Yet the dilemma lingered.
"But maybe he does. The way he looks at you... it's different."
Out of nowhere, he glanced my way. My heartbeat quickened, sending shivers down my spine.
I averted my gaze, pretending to look around.
"Has he noticed me? No, wait-oh my god."
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After switching high schools, Nina discovered a new way of life. She fell in love, made wonderful friends, and everything seemed perfect.
But Ethan-a popular boy who never focused on anyone but her-was the object of her hatred.
He was always there, always keeping her safe.
He used to annoy her endlessly.
She hated him deeply. Until she didn't.
For a while, she was content with her high school experience. That is, until something mysterious turned her world upside down.
Forced to move to a new city, Nina had to cut ties with everyone she once knew.
Eight years later, fate brings her face-to-face with him again.
"Ethan..."
He's the key to everything-the truths she never knew.
When she was lost in the dark, he always held the light.
But now, things are different.
She despises him.
He's colder than ever.
Or perhaps she fears him.
Fears that he'll leave her again.
Will their lives ever return to normal after everything they've endured?
"Maybe?"
"Maybe yes. Maybe no?"
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Started: 8 November 2021
Ended: 19 December 2022
Rewritten: December 2024
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### Rankings Goals So Far:
#1 Adolescente
#1 given up
#1 blinddates
#1 pretend
#10 twistedromance
#50 high school romance
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### Notice:
This is my first published story, and it contains numerous grammatical errors and bad editing. If you're interested in the storyline, please don't judge me too harshly based on this book. Better stories are on the way-I'm still learning and improving every day.
Enjoy! ✨