People have seen so many things. They have traveled across the world, they have fought and won, they have fought and lost. They have loved and been loved. They have lived and will live. They have done so many things to see it all but Aubrey Parish has seen nothing. Not until she sees Lorenzo Ortiz
"Don't you believe in love Aubrey?" Someone once asked her. Her answer was clear and simple. "I do, I believe in love David. Just like I believe in magic, in black holes or in another universe. I believe in love the same way I believe in hundreds of millions of dollars, in becoming a psychiatrist or in world peace but it doesn't mean I'm ever going to get it."
In simple words, this story is about love. It confesses the sins of the love we lust for. It shows the greed, buried into the back of somebody's heart, does more damage than we let on. She's a normal girl, he's a normal guy but together, it's everything but normal. He is addicted to her, she can't get enough of him. He will break her, she will destroy him. He wants her, she needs him. They're like moths drawn to flames.
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"How can you stand there, pretending you dont know me, pretending there's somewhere you'd rather be? I love you. The tears on your cheeks break my heart because they mean that you don't know how much I fucking love you. When I look in your eyes, I don't see the boring, alone girl you see; I see a woman who could bring the world to its knees or that could lift it so fucking high, the entire thing would fly. You are strong, you are kind, you are intelligent, you are trusting, you are outstanding and you are breathtakingly gorgeous. The list goes on Aubrey. I could tell you every. single. thing. I love about you, I wouldn't be done before I died and it would take a shit-load of my time but if that's what it takes to show you how important you are to me, then that's what I'll do."
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Ages 14+ (lesbian concepts and some profanity)
This is not your everyday love story, okay? It's not a chick flick either. The events and themes within my pages have meaning, depth, truth-and most of all, reality. You are about to be taken on an adventure about a girl who's life is not like everybody else's.
I look like a normal teen girl, I mean, I have hair and two eyes and two hands and feet like everybody else, but I couldn't feel more different. I have two moms, yes. Let's just get that out there before you start reading and close my diary like everyone in my life has shut me out of theirs. All I want is a normal life with normal friends who don't judge me because of my home situation. I don't even remember the last time I went on a sleepover or called somebody my age.
I don't mean to be a downer, because it does get better. Life gets better. Struggles are only temporary, I know that now. And by my last words reach your eyes, I've come a long way, and have grown to see potential in myself.
I'm sharing this with you because I want to make a difference. I know now that I'm not the only one in the world that feels alone. I've been there, done that, and there's more loneliness to come, but for now, I feel more prepared for it. I know how it feels to sit by yourself at lunch every day and how it feels to watch others go to prom with dates and feel like shit because you don't think you'd even have any friends to go with. Please ready my diary. I am much older now, and much more wiser, and I can't wait for you to realize the potential in yourself, too.