In silence he suffers with nothing but himself. Alone he is distant. Only one breaks down when it gets too much. Like the ebbs and waves of the great seas they constantly crash onto the sharp black rocks at the bottom or under a cliff, just like him-- from youth to old to youth, and then nothing but a timeless being. Like the rose petals, like the moon, like the darkness, like the night: he is said to be so lonesome but also never, sharp but gentle with delicate hands, like the moon he shines lowly and dimly from both highs and lows. Like the darkness, there was once light that shone from it.
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The other only watches silently and seethes in hatred and envy. The second other only watches with unmoving interest, a silenced racing heart lays in a deep, deep cave under the sea-- like a static clock, with a silent Racing Heart in a deep sea cave.
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Depressive Realism, they say, but he who lost himself will only wander in their shadow, or be lost at black waters in the middle of the ocean-- he was wise, but never wise about himself, his shadow would banter endlessly in his mind and the shadows under him would coil and0 flit. He brings darkness with his very presence, and drag the veil of midnight from his empty-crowned head, while silence will only be the one to accompany him in his stead.
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Or so he thought.
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Feel ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo ---- [BOOK 2]
70 parts Complete Mature
70 parts
Complete
Mature
***READ 'NUMB' FIRST (ON MY PROFILE)***
Damn it
Todoroki
What the fuck did you do?
Why the fuck did you do this to me?
Why the fuck didn't you come back?
You knew I never meant to hurt you
I know
You know that
And yet
You haven't come back
It's been nearly a week
I can't
I can't handle this
My intentions at the start were to help you
And then part ways with you
To focus on my career
But I got attached
And now I never want you to leave
"I knew this would happen." I muttered angrily, grunting in pain as I kept punching.
"I knew as soon as you got better."
My eyes teared up a bit, but I convinced myself it was anger.
"You wouldn't need me anymore." I said through grinding teeth. "And now you don't need me anymore."
I hit it again, and a sharp, burning pain shot up my arm. I stumbled back and yelled in pain. I sat on the ground and stared at the floor, crying and grinding my teeth.
You always hated when I'd push myself too much
And even after everything
No matter how hard I try
I'm still a failure
I always fail in the end
I always fall short
It's never enough
Nothing I ever do
Is enough to come out on top
It used to be easy
I was just naturally good
Comfortable at the top
And now
I'm struggling just to stay in the running
I stood up and walked to the locker room, slamming the door open and closed. I stood in front of the mirror with my hands on both sides of the sink, staring at my reflection.
I was a mess. My eyes were red from my tears and my expression was exhausted and distressed. My face was tear-stained and I was light headed. Just completely out of it. I had bags under my eyes from stress filled days and sleepless nights, an obvious lack of rest.
No wonder Aizawa confronted me
I look like hell
I feel like hell
Fuck
This is hell