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The First Time I Believed

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Reads 25,221
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Parts 32
Time 4h 54m

Mason Morton, after almost being institutionalized for attempting suicide, struggles with dealing with not only his family issues, but his feelings for a boy he knows he shouldn't get involved with and his suicide attempt. Keeping so many secrets, especially from his best friend Grant, strains him, and he starts feeling isolated. 

Will a new romance pave the way to a better future?

Completed: 6/3/2021All Rights Reserved

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Living In The Past

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