The First Time I Believed - Monti Zwayne - Wattpad

The First Time I Believed

Reads 22,860
Votes 674
Parts 32
Time 4h 54m

Reads 22,860
Votes 674
Parts 32
Time 4h 54m

Mason Morton, after almost being institutionalized for attempting suicide, struggles with dealing with not only his family issues, but his feelings for a boy he knows he shouldn't get involved with and his suicide attempt. Keeping so many secrets, especially from his best friend Grant, strains him, and he starts feeling isolated. 

Will a new romance pave the way to a better future?

Completed: 6/3/2021All Rights Reserved

Table of contents

32 parts

Sign up to add The First Time I Believed to your library and receive updates

or

#1bipolardisorder

Content Guidelines

You may also like

Unless (LGBTQ+ BxB Completed Novel) by NodaOrtiz

Noah Riley didn't mean to drown, or did he? But waking up in another boy's hoodie entices him not only to live a little longer but also to solve the mystery. *** Nineteen-year-old Noah Riley wakes up disoriented, soaked to the bone, and alone on the shores of Rockaway Beach, Brooklyn, NY. After a night of wallowing in self-loathing, a Jägermeister, and drunken, dumb choices, he has no clue who pulled him out of the water except for a Polaroid and this unfamiliar black hoodie he is now wearing. Searching for answers as his life unravels and past secrets ravage his sanity, he finds a love that challenges his self-identity and drives him to find meaning in his life. Now, at the turn of the tide, he'd better learn how to make friends with his worst fear: living. Think of second chances, new beginnings, and gay romance. Content warning: This story contains mature sexual content and themes of mental health, suicide, and drug abuse. ✨|Featured| @StoriesUndiscovered, @Romance, @WattpadMulticultural-LGBTQ+, @LY, @WattpadSpiritual, @AbleWorld, @adventure, @talkthepoc, and @NA Editors' Pick feature 2020 - 2021

Killed With Your Own Weapon (bxb) ✔ by UrConNEXtion2TheDark

"A brief emotion of fear flashes through his eyes. My voice whispers across the room: 'Don't you like it?... Even if you don't, I don't really care...' I have to fight against this world, my enemies, this hate. They won't be able to use me anymore. I will make them my prey." - Zephyr is working through his dead list, 7 people who made his life hell, 7 names, 7 letters, 7 death cases. No one can stop him. The hate is too big. The pain is too much. Suddenly there is Aidan... and someone else... Will they fight together in this world, this battlefield? Or only for themselves? ☠☠☠ Word count: 65.000-70.000 [This is a GAY thriller]

Straight as They Come, Kinda by slimmwrites

[Featured in FreetheLGBT: Diverse Literature reading list and Humor: Young. Dumb. Full of Fun list] Colin Mitchell, a photographer at a well-known store, Snapshot, is openly gay--mostly. His ideal experiences are sexcapades that are always subtle, never out of line and straight to the point. (Ironic, isn't it?) However, he meets Peter Chu: a snarky Chinese student with a loud mouth and more issues than Vogue. His intriguing persona has Colin enraptured and willing to throw away his CADBMBB- 'Clients Aren't Dated, But May Be Banged' principle--and take things further than they've ever gone with any guy. Circumstances push both their lives together, with Peter seeking to find his own path after a bad break up and a significant move. Colin is willing to walk that blazed trail with him--in more ways than one. But there is one problem... Peter is as straight as they come. Kinda. ♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤ Highest rankings: #1 in blindness- 31/07/2020 #1 in freethelgbt- 24/01/2021 #1 in gay- 22/05/2021 #4 in teenfiction- 22/05/2021 #4 in bxb out of 78.5K- 20/05/2021 #4 in pride- 09/11/2020 Warning: Contains mature language, violence and steamy scenes. Warning 2.O: This book will have you hooked! #new adult + #teen fiction + #romance + #boyxboy + #humor Started: 16th June, 2020

Conan The Dandelion (Boyxboy) ✔ by letsgohomehidee

*COMPLETED* (27.12.2020) "What about you?" Parker asked. "I don't think I'm capable of love," I answered. "Did you get your heart broken?" He smirked. "Oh no, a lot of things are broken, but strangely not my heart. I have quite a healthy heart. It beats between 60 and 100bpm." I paused. "Except for when I run." Parker stared at me. *** What happens when a quiet and calm Dandelion meets a loud and scowling Parker? Conan moves to the Big City for University, but he's not like other boys. He doesn't know how to interact with others. He is socially awkward, and is often considered as "weird" or "strange". He also can't touch people without feeling sick. But why? Parker is a sex addict. He's wild, outgoing, and loves to party. He's known to be a playboy who changes women quicker than his socks. Not a day goes by when he's not in bed with someone else. But what happens when he meets a boy who can't be touched? Highest ranks: #39 fiction 03.01.20 #35 featured 05.12.20 #3 queer 23.12.2020 #4 gay 06.01.2021 #34 depression 23.12.2020 #8 bl 23.12.2020 #108 youngadult 23.12.2020 #32 featured 27.12.2020 #34 comedy 23.12.2020 #34 bisexual 27.12.2020 #313 teen fiction 27.12.2020 #5 boyxboy 30.12.2020 #2 bxb 03.01.2021 #17 LGBT 03.01.2021 #475 romance 03.01.2021 #tragedy #fiction #featured #queer #gay #depression #bl #youngadult #featured #comedy #bisexual #manxman #teen fiction #boyxboy #bxb #LGBT #romance

Out of reasons (Boy × Boy) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

Only a few months after his dad's death, Daniel decides to leave his hometown to study in an art school at countryside. New ambience would surely help him deal with his dad's death, but what if it, instead, only gives him more issues to deal with? In his new school Daniel meets an illicitly good-looking guy, who seems almost too good to be true. It would have been a perfect beginning of the journey, if Daniel didn't have to share his dormitory flat with a bad-tempered and dishevelled roommate.. CW: violence, sexual assault, trauma, mentions of suicide, panic attacks 2019 (original), 2022 (edited).

No More Wasting Time by Creative_Writer407

Diego Santiago was not your average teenager. He had a loving mother, a great best friend, a beautiful friend, an ex-boyfriend that gave him a traumatic experience, a soon-to-be stepbrother that helped along in that traumatic experience, a friend turned enemy, and finally, a messy slight crush. It's a handful. He was no longer a nobody but somebody with a bad name and a target on his head. He messed with the school's king, and he needed to face the consequences, or so they say and believe. Despite all these things that are making his life one big roller coaster, he still wants one thing in life, for his mother and friends to be happy. Caden Mitchell had a hectic life of his own as well. He was the enemy at first and is trying his best to become a true brother and a true lover. He knew he needed to change, but his old habits keep crawling back. He needed to learn and grow as a person, and for the sake of his mental health, he needed to change fast. Caden was on a mission, a mission to get back his soon-to-be stepbrother and his lover that meant more to him than he could express in words. He was growing desperate and was ready to do just about anything. Even if that meant leaving behind Victor, who he once saw was the closest thing to a brother he'd ever get.

Monsieur Laurier by holysacrilege

"What is love in this temporal life, if not just a distraction from the pain that doesn't seem to end." After losing his best friend to an unexplained suicide, Mateu finds himself left to pick up the pieces with his best friend's younger brother, Ferran. Demure, distant and with a seemingly undying love for the memory of his brother, Ferran fascinates the abrasive Mateu who is relentless in his own search for answers. But uncovering the truth requires the uncomfortable task of facing it for what it is. Only a thin line separates devotion from obsession, dedication from delusion, and passion from mania. Mateu has to choose between coming to terms with the past or be swallowed by it whole. *** Editor's Choice August 2022 @wattpad

Want Me (BoyxBoy) by Heather_gO

When two lovers' best friends meet for the first time... lots of feelings can rise. Attraction, confusion, lust... love? Will they be able to overcome the obstacles that come with being in a homosexual relationship? Will their best friends accept their secret relationship? What about their families? Will love be enough if that's all there is? Find out what happens when a bisexual guy falls for a straight one... from the straight's point of view! ~ Mature Content ~ This can be read as a standalone, but I do suggest reading my other series first! But it is a heterosexual romance, so if you're only interested in reading boyxboy, then just read this one! Like I said above, this story is about a HOMOSEXUAL couple! So if you're not cool with that, don't read it! Go enjoy my other books!! #3 in #lgbt #2 in #spicy #1 in #gaylovers #1 in #pride #2 in #bisexual #1 in #straightguy #3 in #gaypride #1 in #comingout #2 in #homosexual #2 in #homosexuality

Fix Me by theindigojackalope

Jax isn't happy; he hasn't been for a long time. After a suicide attempt, he lands in the psychiatric ward. Oliver has been in the psych ward for longer than he should've been. The new boy with too thin shoulders and no voice intrigues him. The two must find their way along the road to recovery together. ***** "You probably think I'm crazy." "I don't. I think you're an angel. But, you're a fallen one. You've been dealt a rough hand, and your wings have been broken." "You think you can fix me?" "I don't know... But I'll damn sure try." ⚠️Content warning: suicide, depression, anxiety, verbal abuse. Please be safe. xx Highest Ranking: #44 in General Fiction

Sun Kissed ✓ by swallowedhearts

[BXB] Two boys, an ice cream store and a summer to fall in love. ✩✩✩ Outgoing Tanner makes it a mission to befriend his reserved coworker Austin over the course of the summer and turns out to be more successful than he ever could've hoped. [ July. 2021. - August 2021. ] #1 in quickread. #4 in gay. #5 in shortstory. #7 in lighthearted / bisexual #8 in boylove #10 in lgbt / lgbtq #11 in romance. #18 in ya. #26 in boyxboy

You may also like

Slide 1 of 10

Unless (LGBTQ+ BxB Completed Novel) cover

Killed With Your Own Weapon (bxb) ✔ cover

Straight as They Come, Kinda cover

Conan The Dandelion (Boyxboy) ✔ cover

Out of reasons (Boy × Boy) ✔ cover

No More Wasting Time cover

Monsieur Laurier cover

Want Me (BoyxBoy) cover

Sun Kissed ✓ cover

Unless (LGBTQ+ BxB Completed Novel)

Noah Riley didn't mean to drown, or did he? But waking up in another boy's hoodie entices him not only to live a little longer but also to solve the mystery. *** Nineteen-year-old Noah Riley wakes up disoriented, soaked to the bone, and alone on the shores of Rockaway Beach, Brooklyn, NY. After a night of wallowing in self-loathing, a Jägermeister, and drunken, dumb choices, he has no clue who pulled him out of the water except for a Polaroid and this unfamiliar black hoodie he is now wearing. Searching for answers as his life unravels and past secrets ravage his sanity, he finds a love that challenges his self-identity and drives him to find meaning in his life. Now, at the turn of the tide, he'd better learn how to make friends with his worst fear: living. Think of second chances, new beginnings, and gay romance. Content warning: This story contains mature sexual content and themes of mental health, suicide, and drug abuse. ✨|Featured| @StoriesUndiscovered, @Romance, @WattpadMulticultural-LGBTQ+, @LY, @WattpadSpiritual, @AbleWorld, @adventure, @talkthepoc, and @NA Editors' Pick feature 2020 - 2021